Discussion Anyone else feel pathetic?

[WhiskeySolstice]

Anyone else feel pathetic for lingering? I feel pretty awkward for just existing here and still being in the consideration-phase, especially since I know what my conclusion will eventually be. I know it's one of those things you need to be ready for, but still, wish I'd hurry up with getting the hesitation out of the way.
Anyways. That's me.

 

[sadalways]

Yeah, same here. Especially because my reason for lingering is stupid and i know that it's stupid and will not come true. Makes me feel really weird.

 

[Atsushi.Ame]

i definitely feel that way sometimes- I think something thats important to remember is that this fourm is an extremely useful tool to have a real, uncensored, and human discussion about cbt. Even if you aren't ready- being able to have this resource- for whatever comfort/purpose it offers you- makes this whole process a bit easier.

Wishing you peace,

 

[SVEN]

I don't so much feel it as am it.

 

[oneeyed]

I don't so much feel it as am it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Personally, no. My reasons for staying are because I don't want it to hurt my Dad. That seems like a good motive for me. Beyond that though, I'm sure I'll be scared. Not sure if I find that pathetic either. I think it's pretty logical to fear painand the unknown.

I probably should feel pathetic that I haven't made a better go of life but, I don't think I care enough to feel pathetic about that either.

 

[DeathSleep]

I feel pathetic for not successfully ctb yet. I've tried and failed more than once and now I want to do it again. I'm confident it'll work this time. (Of course I was the other times too but my method is solid this time). But I'm hesitating. I don't know what I'm waiting for.

 

[outrider567]

I don't know if I feel pathetic, I don't really feel anything anymore

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Yes. Of course. Especially coming off of a failed attempt. And now that I learn about it, a stupidly failed attempt that probably had little chance of succeeding. Talk about pathetic. And I even have a gun, that makes it way easier and lethal. All I have to do is go retrieve it and just pull the trigger. Simple. But I can't do it. Pathetic to the maximum. Utterly disdainful.

 

[CallmeWill4719]

Yeah apparently we are all strong warriors for still being here. Well this warrior gets tired of fighting all the time. Pathetic is definitely a word but most the time it seems like I'm just annoyed that I'm still wasting my time here. It all feels so pointless when it feels like my early death will seem inevitable unless I get lucky and someone takes care of it for me.

 

[Corvette90]

Anyone else feel pathetic for lingering? I feel pretty awkward for just existing here and still being in the consideration-phase, especially since I know what my conclusion will eventually be. I know it's one of those things you need to be ready for, but still, wish I'd hurry up with getting the hesitation out of the way.
Anyways. That's me.

feel I should have gone years ago.

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, I feel pathetic Im just taking up space. I cant work and can barely do basic tasks and live in my parents basement at 37 years old and have to rely on them . I just lay around all day doom scrolling

 

[Reflection]

Yes and no. I feel more like a dumbass for essentially torturing myself by staying all this time.