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Treeline589
Experienced
- Dec 14, 2021
- 234
So in my mind I had the date picked out and everything. It was supposed to be the last day of the year. When it came right down to it, I couldn't do it. Now I hate myself even more for not being able to. It's as if things are ten times worse. I don't feel like being a functioning member of society, I had thought that the suicidal thoughts consumed my mind before but now it's every single thought. I keep beating myself up for not following through. I luckily have a great relationship with my therapist but even trying to explain this to him last night didn't help. I honestly don't know what to do. I really wish I could find a way out that was easy to complete.