Discussion Anyone else feel like they're just waiting to die?

[Spite]

I do, all the time. I don't think I can ever bring myself to CTB and I don't think I will ever have the courage to do so, which leaves me with no other option than to just bide my time and wait for the inevitable end of it all. I'm going to be waiting a very long time though, like possibly upwards of 50 years until I naturally die of old age.

I'm not even 30 and I feel like I've had enough. It's like... I think I have done everything that I realistically can do given my financial and social limitations. There's not much else I really want to do and I don't see much reason for me to stick around, but I'm probably going to anyway.

These days I'm just... a husk. I'm dead inside. I don't see how that will ever change and I really do feel like I'm done and I'm just waiting for it all to be over. I'm exhausted and defeated.

 

[dreaming]

Yes, I am numb all the time, I have barely any desires, I'm already emotionally dead.
a "husk" really is the only way to describe it.
I wish I had more to say, I feel the same as you on this.

 

[Apathy79]

I think a huge % of older people (80+ especially) feel this way. You've started a lot earlier!

 

[delinquentsandwich]

I've been waiting to die for awhile now as well
the past 6 years have been especially bad
I've been living my life since then just hoping that something would take me out or that I'd get an easy opportunity
waiting, hoping, waiting, hoping
I'm still unsure if I'd have the strength to actually go through with it if I got my method

I haven't always been so dead and empty inside.. like a husk as said
I still have things I want to do and see but they are unobtainable unless some shit happens like winning the lottery

 

[darksouls]

dying of old age can take a long time,
people are living longer and longer