Anyone else feel like complete shit compared to back then?

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Sorry for this harsh language but I have no other way of describing it.
This life feels like some very bad rip-off version of my (back then) already bad life.
Its so bad now in fact that I struggle to put it in proper relation.
Can anyone relate?
Its just mind-blowing to me how I haven't yet ctb.

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

I'm far past my expiration date so "back then" for me was long ago..... So long ago that all of the meds and trauma have erased nearly all of it and all I'm left with is the worst. It's wonderful.

 

[Defenestration]

Me i'm a big shit...
i have Never been born