Anyone else feel different as they get older?

[Ambivalent1]

I don't like it. It makes me uncomfortable

 

[wristcutangel]

I struggle to see the me at different ages as the same person sometime.

 

[XdragonsoulX]

I disassociate a lot and there's times where I'll be out of it for months and come back to and just be staring in the mirror confused on why I look different as I notice the way my skin changes with getting more moles or how even just my hair changes texture, etc. especially since being on testosterone. It scares me tbh, I don't wanna be old I've always imagined my ghost still looking young (mid 20s) how I've always seen myself

 

[R.E.N.]

I often feel like an alien imitating human behavior nowadays. The thoughts I hold now a stranger to previous aspirations. However, it feels cathartic to be an outsider to the events in my own life, with being able to reflect honestly.

 

[Duality]

I have had less mood swings and accepted the fact that I'll be living with my suicidality/depression for my entire life. There's no 'winning' or 'curing' it; it walks with me side by side and that's ok. If on some days I feel more depressed than usual, I let the feelings flow in private instead of trying to fight it.

 

[RasinBoxECT]

I've unfortunately only felt worse and worse as I've gotten older. I know I was happy as a kid before I really knew anything. Then the big sad began. It was a steady decline into high school and since then I haven't really changed.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes but it's a good thing for me. I spent a large portion of my childhood grieving and/or afraid. I spent the next 20 years worrying about the future and obsessing about various things. It's only really now I'm starting to just let go. I've always suspected none of it was very important but now I think I'm really starting to believe it. That, or I'm just too tired to keep worrying. Or- it's a feeling that things are coming to a forced close- so- I don't need to worry about a non existent future anymore.

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

Not exactly, It's more like a updated version of myself

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

I'm 18, the moment I turned 17 my mindset literally shifted and my frontal lobe started to ACTUALLY develop.

It's a weird feeling, it's like everything you were ever curious about and the things you didn't understand just click into place, but then that can also be room for depression, because sometimes you need to accept the fucked up reality of shit, as depressing as it is.

Though that being said, yk the inner monologue trope from tween shows? I've had that ever since I was a kid and I like to imagine that even as I get older I still have the quirky part of myself following me around.

 

[52yoandmiserable]

I'll be 54 in 28 days.
I feel old, tired, impotent, and frustrated.
It's just gotten worse as I've gotten older, with zero hope of it getting any better.

 

[broken_stoic]

I thought I was ok with it. Then I realized I really, really, really am not ok with it at all XD.

 

[ThisGameIsOverrated]

Is that not natural? Not to be sarcastic but I think changing mental states as you age is practically universal

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Different as in....? We all change as we age, that's normal.