Discussion Anyone else depressed because of Christmas?

[SpecialK]

I personally don't like that time if the year. It's what I hate the most I think. I don't like being around so much people, people who's offering gifts to each others, and I'm there, too poor to afford anything to give, feeling like a dumbass. I rather stay in my room at home and wait until it's December 26, and same thing for new year eve, waiting til its January 2nd. Eww I hate hate this time of the year.

Anyone else?

 

[Moonicide]

I don't like the holidays in general as they hold a lot of childhood trauma for me.
I do the same thing as you, I hide in my room and wait for it to end. I stopped going to gatherings as it was either they were too drunk, fighting, being abusive to each other, or picking on me. Or all the above.

 

[SpecialK]

I don't like the holidays in general as they hold a lot of childhood trauma for me.
I do the same thing as you, I hide in my room and wait for it to end. I stopped going to gatherings as it was either they were too drunk, fighting, being abusive to each other, or picking on me. Or all the above.

I'm sorry to hear you're in the same situation. I wish holidays didn't exists sometimes. I hope this year it won't be too bad for us... If I'm still alive.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I usually don't mind it, but this year its being hard to deal with.
Everyone seems so fake too

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

Just from a statistical standpoint, this time of year is typically when depression and suicide rates shoot pretty high. From what others have posted in response to the question, it's a safe indicator to what a few of the reasons are for this.

On a personal level, yes, the holidays are shit. My so called family and friends want nothing other than 'buy me this, buy me that' and on the 3rd of December is the 11th anniversary of losing my son, so I say.....Fuck Christmas.

 

[csidesuicide]

I study abroad so I live alone, far from my family. I should be excited to go back home for Christmas but just the thought of being around my family and pretending to be okay makes me want to ctb sooner. But I don't want my mom to spend Christmas alone so I'll just suck it up and hang in there.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Yes I hate this time of year. The holidays are the worst I feel a lot more suicidal. It doesn't help this time of year is the anniversary of some traumatic events in my life Your not alone.

I feel a lot of envy too because everyone is spending time with a loving partner and friends and I have none.

 

[Throwawaysoul]

I hate Christmas so much. I used to love it as a kid. I don't get calls or presents. It's just a useless day. Maybe this year I'll try and volunteer somewhere.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Just from a statistical standpoint, this time of year is typically when depression and suicide rates shoot pretty high. From what others have posted in response to the question, it's a safe indicator to what a few of the reasons are for this.

On a personal level, yes, the holidays are shit. My so called family and friends want nothing other than 'buy me this, buy me that' and on the 3rd of December is the 11th anniversary of losing my son, so I say.....Fuck Christmas.

I thought that to about statistics wise - but then someone one on here said it actually spikes in summer? Who knows :/

Just from a statistical standpoint, this time of year is typically when depression and suicide rates shoot pretty high. From what others have posted in response to the question, it's a safe indicator to what a few of the reasons are for this.

On a personal level, yes, the holidays are shit. My so called family and friends want nothing other than 'buy me this, buy me that' and on the 3rd of December is the 11th anniversary of losing my son, so I say.....Fuck Christmas.

I thought that to about statistics wise - but then someone one on here said it actually spikes in summer? Who knows :/

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

I thought that to about statistics wise - but then someone one on here said it actually spikes in summer? Who knows :/

I thought that to about statistics wise - but then someone one on here said it actually spikes in summer? Who knows :/

For some reason, it's showing me you wrote that twice, lol. After a quick search, seems most publications and even the CDC are claiming that holiday increase for suicides is a myth, so maybe I'm wrong on that statistic. Don't think I've heard of the summer one, though, so would be interested learning the reasoning on that one, actually.

Edit: Ok, so after some research, found https://www.health.com/mind-body/spring-depression-suicide Which highlights some information in regards to this. Mind you, the article is from 2017, but can't seem to find a more recent discussion, yet.

For those that can't access the article or don't have time to dive in, I'll paste a portion.

According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, suicide rates spike in the spring and to a lesser extent in the fall—not around the holidays as everyone suspects. And suicides in general have increased 24% between 1999 and 2014, according to a CDC report released last year.

The uptick begins in early April and late May. Why? The seasonal brightness may have something to do with it: In a 2016 op-ed in The Washington Post, Harvard professor of psychology Matthew Nock cited a study published in JAMA Psychiatry that found that as hours of sunlight increased, so did the risk of suicide. "The authors speculate that sunlight could boost energy and motivation, thus giving people who are depressed the ability to take action and make a suicide attempt," he wrote.
And some researchers are looking at suicide rates at times of high-pollen counts compared with less pollen, theorizing that the increase might be due to increased anxiety or aggression related to inflammation.

 

[dedalus1238900]

From now until New Years Day, everything is seen as happy and joyful while you look at them in a grey or almost dissociated state of mind remembering times where you were happy and then realizing everything has changed and the forced joy others push on you to almost just smile or trying to explain things, to other people the way your life is and can be such a struggle or triggered to feel joy around you and almost feel guilty for letting others down or feeling depressed or having pain and then you wait for their simple fix answer or you just need to smile more or think positively, or take the one magic depression pill that they believe exists because you have a chemical imbalance and you just say essentially ok because, all the MDs, Psychiatrists, and Medications you've seen don't work, but smiling or prayers will solve everything. Most (not all) understand it's not that simple and holidays just make it worse with the expectation of it being a happy time.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

I actually like every part of Christmas holidays EXCEPT Christmas.
It's just that I'm an only child of my family and the day goes really depressing and boring.
Though I am still thankful becaude it's better than having no one.

 

[Fragile]

i'm extremely neutral towards this season, not many good memories, not many good ones. but this time is different.

i'ts because i know that this christmas will be the last. and that feeling is making me extremely nostalgic for my family and the times we shared, the good memories, the many christmas i've spent alone. feels like i'm in the final stretch of my life and i'm living those memories one last time with each day.

 

[Sideswipe]

i hate holidays... xmas is one big retail ripoff and I have so many birthdays right before too.. we call it shitmas in my house. Kevin bloody wilson, the pouges and "I hope you have a shitty Christmas by Landen Tawers is my current list of xmas music!

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I liked the holidays when I was still functional enough to have family and friends in my life. It is also cold and dark here. 6 hours of daylight, and minus 24 degrees Celsius. So, Christmas is sub-optimal.

 

[dedalus1238900]

It's the only thing keeping me from doing something for a month or so because, I don't want Christmas to be ruined for my Mom especially for the rest of here life associating anything Christmas related to pain. Late January while still will not completely help things; but hopefully I can make it another month holiday time has worn off and its a dreary cold insignificant date. If it dose not ruin Christmas to the few helpful people in my for years it's something I want to try to soften the blow.

 

[Nem]

Yep, rather suck my own dick than celebrate bullshit
Peace/hugs

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Yep, rather suck my own dick than celebrate bullshit
Peace/hugs

Sucking my own dick is my greatest unaccessible fantasy!

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I don't celebrate them but it's a terrible time of the year. They make me sad. But, well... recently a lot things that used to help have been having the opposite effect.

 

[marcusuk63]

I hate christmas , who ever thought of it should be nailed to a cross

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

I hate christmas , who ever thought of it should be nailed to a cross

Commercial holiday for capitalists just like all the other fake holidays.

Just curious...when's your date? Much of your stuff has been packed for a minute. (Not that I'm rushing you.) I'm packing now myself...

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I read something about an old usenet group Or something called alt/suicide/holiday.

 

[marcusuk63]

Commercial holiday for capitalists just like all the other fake holidays.

Just curious...when's your date? Much of your stuff has been packed for a minute. (Not that I'm rushing you.) I'm packing now myself...

I dont have a date but it will be soon , i have binned most of my possessions and had to go out and get some sweatshirts the other day as it was cold and i only had a handful of T-shirts left .. having dealt with finding my brother dead and seeing other siblings sharing and binning his stuff made me sick so i dont want to give them the chance when i ctb ... i`ve put my car up for sale and my last games console (i still need money lol )
My mum has also just got out of hospital having had a kidney out with cancer .
my so called plan is to sell my car so i can get a camper van and then i can sell my house cheap to one of those we buy any house in 7 days , for a greatly reduced price of course .... then i can just disappear and cut all ties with family until my cash runs out and then an accidental co2 leak in the van .

 

[EmptyArms]

Just from a statistical standpoint, this time of year is typically when depression and suicide rates shoot pretty high. From what others have posted in response to the question, it's a safe indicator to what a few of the reasons are for this.

On a personal level, yes, the holidays are shit. My so called family and friends want nothing other than 'buy me this, buy me that' and on the 3rd of December is the 11th anniversary of losing my son, so I say.....Fuck Christmas.

I understand. It's coming up to the 7th anniversary of losing my daughter. I cant bear Christmas. It's the hardest time of year. I miss her so much. All joy has gone.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I understand. It's coming up to the 7th anniversary of losing my daughter. I cant bear Christmas. It's the hardest time of year. I miss her so much. All joy has gone.

I'm sorry to hear that. Please accept a hug