Lirisu
piss drinker
- Jun 30, 2024
- 17
Usually I'm anorexic and straight up refuse to eat, but when I binge I give myself the excuse of "it's okay I'll just CTB later!". Does anyone else think like this lol?
yea. some days I eat less than 600cal, while other days I binge eat for this exact reason
DefinitelyReady
*perpetually annoyed*
- Mar 14, 2024
- 1,145
Lately since I plan to ctb in a few months I haven't restricted or bothered to eat very healthy. I also don't have a proper kitchen, fridge, oven, stove top, microwave etc so it's that much more hard to eat healthy.
I've never been able to majorly restrict to a goal weight though; opposite problem. But since ctb has been in my head I've been less crazed to stay below my "depressed weight."
I've never been able to majorly restrict to a goal weight though; opposite problem. But since ctb has been in my head I've been less crazed to stay below my "depressed weight."
I've got health issues so I'm actually trying to look after what I eat now (somewhat) so I can retain enough strength to ctb. Getting lots of blood work done and such to see where I'm at.
Not when it comes to food, but I can relate to this line of thinking when it comes to other things. Future me isn't such a big part of the equation anymore when it comes to (not) doing things. It's not like I'm actively ruining a possible future as I want to keep my options open, but I'm not doing things just because of some future return on investment. I still brush my teeth, but I don't floss!
I want to cbt but I eat as healthy as I can as I am a gym rat. I dont have many joys in life but I do enjoy staring at my body in a mirror and flexing. I know its shallow but it is what it is
