Anyone else attempting soon?

[Hope:-)]

When it came to my last attempt at an attempt I didn't even make it to the hotel I had booked! This time I have a house to myself. I have to go because my father will be picking me up as I am looking after the cat and fish, ( If I choose to pass I will be leaving out extra provisions for the fish and cat don't worry,) so that gets me one step closer. If I manage to take all the preliminary meds and don't go through with the sn I will still be happy because I came one step closer to my goal.

Anyone else attempting soon?

 

[Shikamaru]

My attempt is planned for mid November, just holding out till after my brothers birthday then will put final things in place and say goodbye

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I hope. Need to procure AEs first. Then we'll see.

 

[Sadboyspecimen]

I believe so, I'm really out of options here. Forfeited my life at an early age by using drugs and I'm sick of people kicking me to the curb over it. I've put off my ctb for 2 months now though. Keep getting caught up in the what ifs. Maybe theres a chance things could come together? Only problem is that I've been saying maybe maybe maybe for the last 5 years now. It's gonna be real soon I know. I just have put my foot down and do it. Nothing changes for a addict. Society won't let it. Even though they fool you with phony rehabilitation services. No one wants to hire an ex junkie.

 

[thebunny]

attempting in a few weeks, around the last week of october. already have everyday ready and prepped. can't wait, tbh.

 

[makethepainstop]

I believe so, I'm really out of options here. Forfeited my life at an early age by using drugs and I'm sick of people kicking me to the curb over it. I've put off my ctb for 2 months now though. Keep getting caught up in the what ifs. Maybe theres a chance things could come together? Only problem is that I've been saying maybe maybe maybe for the last 5 years now. It's gonna be real soon I know. I just have put my foot down and do it. Nothing changes for a addict. Society won't let it. Even though they fool you with phony rehabilitation services. No one wants to hire an ex junkie.

Sadboy I'm so sorry for your great pain. Christian pious types but always babble on about Jesus said, forgiveness..... ad nauseum. I think the world is chock full hypocrisy and scammers. I swear either there is no God, or if there is a God, there are some of us he seems to absolutely hate. Wish you could should you in a very strong hug for a few minutes. I know how bad you hurt bro, I'm right there with you.

 

[hopelessgirl]

not sure when my attempt will be. just quit my job so I´m guessing my mental health will decline quite quickly

 

[Nirrend]

I'll go in the mid october, I have to visit for a last one last time the person I love, and after, I'll make everything possible to ctb. In fact, I only need few things to have everything set up but the only thing is to catch the bus when SI is at it lowest power.

How do you feel those who will ctb soon ? Are you fluctuating between sudden anxiety and sudden relieve and peace constantly too ?

Loving you all <3

I'm not trying to incitate to act but, we have to believe in us <3

Love <3

 

[KQuotientW]

I've almost finished typing emails, which I will send soon to various recipients. There are a number of people to contact. I've polished my will.

For weeks, it's been raining, making it difficult to light charcoal outdoors then bring it inside. We're getting a few days off from the rain. I'm so close to catching the bus. It will be like going home.

I couldn't access this forum for hours. I started to worry it had been permanently closed down. This place has been a sanctuary for me.

 

[Hope:-)]

^^^ I couldn't access it earlier. It was a general fault thank goodness.

 

[spectraltease]

When it came to my last attempt at an attempt I didn't even make it to the hotel I had booked! This time I have a house to myself. I have to go because my father will be picking me up as I am looking after the cat and fish, ( If I choose to pass I will be leaving out extra provisions for the fish and cat don't worry,) so that gets me one step closer. If I manage to take all the preliminary meds and don't go through with the sn I will still be happy because I came one step closer to my goal.

Anyone else attempting soon?

My timer is set for mid january. Not that soon but still be dead.

 

[Hope:-)]

I'll go in the mid october, I have to visit for a last one last time the person I love, and after, I'll make everything possible to ctb. In fact, I only need few things to have everything set up but the only thing is to catch the bus when SI is at it lowest power.

How do you feel those who will ctb soon ? Are you fluctuating between sudden anxiety and sudden relieve and peace constantly too ?

Loving you all <3

I'm not trying to incitate to act but, we have to believe in us <3

Love <3

I feel ok thanks, at times pretty good. I feel better than I did the last time I attempted an attempt. I feel more prepared for the pain. I'm just going to be as brave as I can be xx

 

[Hollowillow]

I hope. Need to procure AEs first. Then we'll see.

AEs?

 

[actual_fox]

AEs?

Anti emetics- things that stop you from puking

 

[Hollowillow]

I expect doing it on impulse... I would have taken sn when a friend did, and waking in agony again...

Anti emetics- things that stop you from puking

Ah, thank you fur fur I haven't figured out those at all yet...

 

[No blackangel]

Will attempt as soon as possible. SN is due to arrive at the 13th of october, just need to keep myself together untill it arrives. Have everything else prescripted. Not afraid to die, life is mostly over anyways.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

if i had a method id do it right now but everyone methods has complications or costs money or requires some basic knowledge of things.

 

[unfettered]

I'm shooting for tomorrow if not tonight

 

[Niirvana]

First I have to see what I will do with the work. I don't want my classmates to find out. I don't want to come to work anymore, I want to quit now. I wish I didn't care about the opinion of others

 

[unfettered]

First I have to see what I will do with the work. I don't want my classmates to find out. I don't want to come to work anymore, I want to quit now. I wish I didn't care about the opinion of others

Today I'm telling them I'm coming down with COVID like symptoms. Tomorrow I'll say i feel worse and going to the hospital. Then it's just a matter of CTB and everyone can assume i died at the hospital.

It's so simple it's ingenious.

 

[Hollowillow]

Today I'm telling them I'm coming down with COVID like symptoms. Tomorrow I'll say i feel worse and going to the hospital. Then it's just a matter of CTB and everyone can assume i died at the hospital.

It's so simple it's ingenious.

I tried so hard to catch & die of covid... I want to make a comic about how didsapointing that plague was.

 

[Niirvana]

Today I'm telling them I'm coming down with COVID like symptoms. Tomorrow I'll say i feel worse and going to the hospital. Then it's just a matter of CTB and everyone can assume i died at the hospital.

It's so simple it's ingenious.

Hahahaha it's good ehh, I should do it

But no one dies of covid anymore :(

 

[unfettered]

Hahahaha it's good ehh, I should do it

But no one dies of covid anymore :(

They don't have to know. What're they gonna do? Call all the hospitals in the area and hope they get the right department and manage to get the right doctor at the right time that tells them i indeed died of covid?

My biggest concern is my ex finding out about this. I don't want her to know i did this because of her.

 

[Ashmedai]

I want to try before Christmas but I have to find SN. Anyone that can help me please contact me. It's extremely difficult to gather all the informations.

 

[Hope:-)]

I just want to get it over with tbh...the doing life in between bit is at worst scary and at best boring counting down the days. Hope I actually do it.

 

[Enoughnow]

I'm hoping to tonight now I've fasted all day but my survival instincts kicking in its stupid because I'm so desperate to die and brains just like do it I know if I don't ill wake up kicking myself that I didn't but I'm scared to
What if it fails what if I get sectioned etc I just wanna fall asleep and not wake up

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm feeling super lonely today and doubting whether I can go through with it. My arithmetic is ridiculous. I won't take 20 mins pain to get out of this misery. That's ridiculous. I'm going to do my best to be brave but it's hard. I just have to do the pragmatic thing and go for it I think

 

[Hollowillow]

II

I want to try before Christmas but I have to find SN. Anyone that can help me please contact me. It's extremely difficult to gather all the informations.

I can give sources by pm. Am I allowed to say that?

I'm feeling super lonely today and doubting whether I can go through with it. My arithmetic is ridiculous. I won't take 20 mins pain to get out of this misery. That's ridiculous. I'm going to do my best to be brave but it's hard. I just have to do the pragmatic thing and go for it I think

Sorry to make it harder but I'm sorry to see you go *hugs* I recognize your name. I hope you'll find inner peace

 

[Ashmedai]

II

I can give sources by pm. Am I allowed to say that?

Sorry to make it harder but I'm sorry to see you go *hugs* I recognize your name. I hope you'll find inner peace

You would give me a great help.

 

[akirat9]

yes, later today