Anyone available and willing to talk?

[CorpseFaceMcgee]

Hi I'm new here and planning to be gone by tomorrow. I've felt certain and had no doubts but now that I've done my prep work I'm feeling a weird need to talk to someone. Haven't been able to tell anyone so as not to be stopped so haven't been able to discuss actually doing it at all. Idk how this works but is anyone up to chat? Isolated here socially and in a rural area in the middle of the night with consequences looming so its do or die right now lol. I didn't think I would hesitate at all this sucks.

 

[mathieu]

Feel free to message me if you want. I think you need 5 posts before you can PM, though.

 

[Lotus1818]

Hey there. I'm sorry you feel this way. Are you sure this is the only way out? I'm afraid you need atleast 5 posts here and wait 24 hours to gain pm rights.

Can I ask why you want to ctb? What method are you thinking off

 

[CorpseFaceMcgee]

Carbon monoxide, all prep is done except I haven't started the coals yet because once I do then I have to be gone within a couple hours. Reason is ongoing severe mental health issues now compounded with losing my son and will lose my home and most possessions by the end of the week. I've been so sure of this that I didn't think about not existing anymore until I went to light the coals.

 

[Lotus1818]

Carbon monoxide, all prep is done except I haven't started the coals yet because once I do then I have to be gone within a couple hours. Reason is ongoing severe mental health issues now compounded with losing my son and will lose my home and most possessions by the end of the week. I've been so sure of this that I didn't think about not existing anymore until I went to light the coals.

Damn man I'm sorry to hear that.
I hope you can find your peace.

 

[Mariomcfly]

Hey I'm here if you need it.

 

[drake4871]

Ah I was considering the charcoal method today as well, are you planning on using a chimney starter?

 

[CorpseFaceMcgee]

Damn man I'm sorry to hear that.
I hope you can find your peace.

Thank you ❤

Ah I was considering the charcoal method today as well, are you planning on using a chimney starter?

I have 3, I dont want to walk away from this. I kind of..already destroyed the home in rageful greif so if I dont do this I'm in fucking trouble.

 

[Azzy69]

You can chat with me

 

[jgm63]

note : If you want to talk to anyone "privately" (instead of posting on this thread), then you can use "PM" (PM = personal message, a bit like sending someone an email)
You need to make at least 5 posts and need to have been active for at least 24 hours to get PM access.
If you don't know what to post to reach 5 posts, you can post in some of the "games" threads (see "offtopic" section).
Once you have PM access, when you hover the mouse pointer over a user name, you will see a "start conversation" button….

 

[notjustyetagain]

welcome. it sounds like you're in a desperate/urgent situation, i'm very sorry to read of it. it's been almost 3½ hours since your last post -- how are you faring? we're all available to listen if you'd like to share. you're not alone.

 

[LonelyLight]

Hi, you are more than welcome to PM me, I'm so sorry for the awful time you are having and what you are facing. As users said above, we are all here to listen and help however we can.

 

[Moonicide]

Hi I'm new here and planning to be gone by tomorrow. I've felt certain and had no doubts but now that I've done my prep work I'm feeling a weird need to talk to someone. Haven't been able to tell anyone so as not to be stopped so haven't been able to discuss actually doing it at all. Idk how this works but is anyone up to chat? Isolated here socially and in a rural area in the middle of the night with consequences looming so its do or die right now lol. I didn't think I would hesitate at all this sucks.

Welcome, love. You are more than welcome to share your story with us.
I really do hope you find peace.

 

[Pan]

Hi I'm new here and planning to be gone by tomorrow. I've felt certain and had no doubts but now that I've done my prep work I'm feeling a weird need to talk to someone. Haven't been able to tell anyone so as not to be stopped so haven't been able to discuss actually doing it at all. Idk how this works but is anyone up to chat? Isolated here socially and in a rural area in the middle of the night with consequences looming so its do or die right now lol. I didn't think I would hesitate at all this sucks.

Oh, that devilish survival instinct! I want so desperately to end my life, and think full suspension is the way to go; I reason that with full, there is no turning back—-one drop and it's all over and I am free.