Discussion Anybody's addictions driving them to suicide?

[Dogsbody]

My alcoholism is. I can't get better and I can't live like this.

 

[Dog Food]

Yeah, I'd say my eating disorder, which is something of an addiction. It makes me anxious at every moment and so tired. Every moment I'm awake I have to keep fidgeting, and when I don't have anything planned I sleep until 3 or 4 PM because at least I'm not eating. I have a BMI of 12.2, my hair's falling out and I have constant, painful irritation on my throat from vomiting so much.
Hopefully it kills me so I don't have to.

 

[your pathologist]

Addicted to ruining my fuckin life~

 

[Mr2005]

This place has become one. I might have come on here to die but not for it to kill me

 

[longingforrelease]

it may be playing some role. I'm back on amphetamines but I can't say to what degree my increasing suicidal ideation is related. As I've discussed in other posts I threw away a wonderful life and have been considering ctb for a couple of years now. I'm now isolated, 10,000 miles from my daughter who has frankly been the sole reason I made it through the last couple of years, But now that she's not in my life except for a weekly skype, I'm losing the will to hang on.

 

[InsidiousDormouse]

Yeah, I was addicted to Codeine and Benzos, the Benzos took everything from me, and after I was forced to stop cold turkey by people who were supposed to help me, my body has begun to rot from the inside out. Not a day goes by where the symptoms don't plague me, and the cold turkey was two years ago.

Read my latest post I am making.

 

[worldexploder]

It's certinaly not helping.

I have been a food addict since I was a kid. Because I restrain myself from overdoing it everyday, I stick to 310 (I'm 6 foot 2) but I'm always hungry. It's very annoying. I could eat 2 large pizzas If I wanted to.

Alcoholism is also a pain in the ass. Like with the eating, I do restrain myself by going days without. Yet crave it everyday and apparently I still have a tolerance after going 8 days last time.

I'm addicted to cigs as well.

All I want to do is feel "ok". Yet the only thing that allows me to feel that way temporarily bites me in the ass at the same time.

 

[LostitAll]

Interesting topic. For me, I used cocaine, heroin, painkillers, alcohol, and benzos.
(Not all at once..Lol) but I haven't used anything in months. Mainly because I'm too
broke to get any. I can say I was happier being a drug addict than the miserable
fuck I am now.

 

[Circles]

Heroin. Man oh man I fucking miss it. I always think of Jefferson Airplane's White Rabbit lyrics 'Feed your head'.

 

[LostitAll]

Heroin. Man oh man I fucking miss it. I always think of Jefferson Airplane's White Rabbit lyrics 'Feed your head'.

I tend to think of Guns N' Roses song Mr. Brownstone.

 

[LostitAll]

I wish I had the money and the means to get a bunch.
I'd ctb that way instead. My tolerance is so low now.

 

[LostitAll]

Damage from addictions and psych meds yes. I can't function anymore. I've ruined my life and my brain. Trying to ctb sucks ass it's not right this is insane but I'm so sick of drs and shots and life struggling so hard- drs ruined me and many others. There's an industry that takes advantage of those in need and suffering-[/QUOT

Pharmaceutical companies make billions of dollars every
year through the pain and suffering of human beings.