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Bruces

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May 11, 2020
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Just pleasant nothingness?
 
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KibblesNBits

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May 30, 2020
151
Just pleasant nothingness?

Absolutely. Dying doesn't scare me, I'd just prefer not to be there when it happens. Been dreaming about dying in my sleep for years now.
 
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Bruces

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May 11, 2020
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just permanent sleep
 
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Chiyuki99

Chiyuki99

a nightmare dressed like a daydream
May 28, 2019
140
I am religious so I'm both scared and excited to see what comes next.
 
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alanitis

alanitis

Enough with the optimism
Jul 9, 2020
18
I don't usually have dreams but for the past two weeks I am constantly having dreams of the methods I think to ctb.

I am so happy that finally I'm doing it but the second the method is successful, I wake up to my heart exploding of fear and pain of realizing this was a dream.
 
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Garbage Person

Garbage Person

Eating snowflakes with plastic forks
Jan 17, 2020
305
I feel somewhat indifferent. I assume I won't really be able to appreciate the peace that comes with it. I can only reflect on that now. Im glad I won't be destroying my brain in a violent manner as I always thought I would. For all I know, the last moments in my mind after my body has already shut down will feel like eternity. I hope those dying moments feel more whole than I ever did in my living moments. One can hope for a gleaming, divine moment of truth and comfort that only that situation could bring.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
Yes.. If only death would come to me sooner
 
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EGR92

Student
Jul 4, 2020
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im genuinely excited. and i cant wait to destroy my family like they destroyed me. If they feel even half the pain they caused me I'll be happy.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I admire what the actor John Hurt said while awaiting death of cancer: "I hope I shall have the courage to say 'Vroom! Let's go!'" I would love to be that mindful. My death is one of the Big Moments in my life and I don't want to miss it.
 
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V1991r

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Jun 16, 2020
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I hope it's pleasant nothingness. What scares me is that it could be our ctb attempt replayed over and over and over...
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I hope it's pleasant nothingness. What scares me is that it could be ...

Oh great - another awful scenario to add to my collection! :ohhhh:
 
stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
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I'm just glad I don't have to pressure myself anymore to achieve anything in this short time frame I have left.
That makes death feel like a relief - not having to work or try to find a significant other anymore. I'm just burnt out I guess.
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
Oh, the sweet, soft embrace of death. To be freed from this pain, this relentless torture chamber that is my body and mind.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
I'm a bit scared. I only started believing in God this year and I'm convinced that the afterlife is real now.

I would have scoffed at anyone who said this a year ago but I'm genuinely worried about my consciousness going somewhere unpleasant as a result of dying by suicide. I've heard some really hellish NDEs from people who said they were bad people before they had their near-death experience.

I'm not carrying any bitterness, anger or hatred with me so I'm hoping that will work in my favour. I looked into donating a kidney as an anonymous donor but it turns out the screening process is very rigorous and I don't think I would get accepted. I'm physically healthy but I have an attempted suicide on my medical records so I worry my motives could be picked up in the psychiatric assessment they carry out.

I don't think I've been too much of a bad person but I've been a failure and wasted my life. I'd be more than happy to come back and try again.
Awww...you seem like a caring person. And I doubt that your afterlife (if existent) will be all that bad.
After all there are still rapists and murders walking around free and are dying at some point - those are the people who should really be afraid (if religious).
 
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Disco Biscuit

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Mar 1, 2020
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Awww...you seem like a caring person. And I doubt that your afterlife (if existent) will be all that bad.
After all there are still rapists and murders walking around free and are dying at some point - those are the people who should really be afraid (if religious).
Apparently we have a life review when we cross over and experience all the pain and suffering we caused from the perspective of the people we hurt. Except it's magnified by a lot. So people who do terrible things like rape and murder do suffer the consequences eventually. If the afterlife is real, that is.
 
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Weary Soul

Weary Soul

Soon I will be free
Nov 13, 2019
1,156

"Anybody looking forward to death"​

Yes!! But not the process of getting there.
 
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Adamsnolife

Adamsnolife

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May 5, 2020
394
Yes very much so. Just existing and that's not living
 
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