My step dad shot himself on a monday morning at about 5 am when I was about 15, there was very little indication ahead of time that this might happen, and no details left behind.
My huge guilt is that I was asked to go to the range that weekend, but was too meek to ask my Dad for permission, so said I didn't get permission. I know that this is one "incident" in a vast web of circumstances that lead to a suicide, but still, I wasn't even able to go to a funeral and didn't receive mental health help so I've clung onto it.
To "Accept it Better" would probably require more information to be revealed, but it's possible he felt a need to keep it all suppressed, or I'm not being told everything. I think the primary tragedy with a lot of these things is that people are afraid to express their suffering to others for fear of maltreatment which results in being pushed towards other solutions.