I wanted to tell stories, not as an author but through video games and possibly animation. I also wanted to be the first millionaire in my family lol funny how unrealistic it sounds looking back. Did anybody else have ridiculous dreams at one point?
I wanted to build a family, you know, get married, have kids, grandkids, etc...
I know it's a weird "dream", cuz it's something most people just naturally do at some point in their lives.
Still, i gave up on it, it just doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
Having kids just seem selfish, everyone was perfectly fine just not existing, then our parents got way too horny one night and... Look at us now.
Getting married also just seems like a waste, i even doubt "Love" is a real thing sometimes.
Marriage just seems like a combination of social/financial stability and lust, not much else, maybe it's just me being too cynical, but it's how i see it.
So yeah, gave up on it.
Other types of dreams, like career related ones, i don't know, i just lost all of my passion for everything.
I wanted to be a teacher, but suffering through college again only to spend my days teaching a bunch of pests doesn't sound fun, i remember how most kids were.
Also, that desire mostly just came from me not wanting time to go by, i wanted things to stay where they were, and where was i? School, so it just made sense.
But eventually i realised everything was going to change, for the worst, anyways.
Also, gaming is kind of boring, drawing got kind of boring and i would hate it even more if i made a career out of it.
I mean, dreams are all about something you "want" to happen.
It's hard to want anything when you can barely feel any pleasure or see any point in things anymore.
And it's hard to have dreams when you don't want anything.
Yeah, the passage of time really broke us all, didn't it?
