UninformedLover
If you see me active on here...its gotten worse...
- Nov 12, 2019
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Whether it's subconsciously or on purpose - do you do it? If so why or why do you think you do it?
¡Sí!
I don't know. Borderline PD? Masochism? The searing satisfaction of seeing one's worst fears and insecurities become realized?
Thanks for the chance to vent. ;)
What about you UninformedLover? (Wish you could change your name to UNIFORMED LOver).
I do it too. I'm not really sure why. I always end up destorying my relationships with people. I don't realize it until its too late. I guess it's okay because it makes me ctb a little easier I suppose. Sometimes I wish I could just maintain relationships and have friends but I don't believe I am wortht of such luxury.
Sometimes I think this. I justify being rude and crabby to my parents by thinking, "I am saving them from heartache when they come home to find my big body hanging by a rope."The lower I feel, the more I push away people. I don't do this actively,I am just tired and unwilling to meet them all the time. It comes from within and I wasn't like this always. Alienation could be a defense mechanism so that our loved ones are less hurt if we go.