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- Mar 15, 2019
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At the moment, I am simply spread sooooo thin..... I am just being beat up by life non-stop, can't truly ever catch a breather
It is very safe to say, it is just constantly one problem after another, with no end in sight. And I mean it in a way where I am already trying my absolute best. Just being an honest, positive, hard working human. I never bring trouble to anyone, or cause any unnecessary problems
But life just doesn't work like that. For some reason, endless problems just keep finding their way to you no matter what.... to give an example, its like one of those things where....
Just after you finally thought you resolved a problem that you didn't even cause in the first place, but now the pipes in your house start leaking. After you resolve that, then your car suddenly doesn't turn on. Then after you fix that, now suddenly a new neighbor moved in, that party louds every night, so you can't sleep properly anymore
Then after you finally move into a new place, just about to settle down, now a new family problem happens. Then after you resolve that, suddenly there is a new health issue to take care of. Then after all this unexpected distraction, now you suddenly need to get a second job, because now you're in debt, because all these issues delayed and messed up all your financial plans..... as the debt interests are just further adding up and compounding everyday
You're just consisting trying to fight, fight, fight..... just to keep falling backwards and instead trying to play catch up, never able to truly get ahead, despite how hard you try......... there is simply no light at the end of the tunnel
For something good to ever happen or just appear out of nowhere, it is sooooo damn difficult (near impossible), you can literally compare it to going to space.
But for negative things to just pop out of nowhere automatically and randomly without a single effort, and keep coming non-stop by the TRUCK LOAD, it is sooooo damn easy, as if you were just blinking an eye
I think this sums up life for some of us
I can't help but to think.......... what the fuck was I brought into????? Why the hell am I stuck inside this absolute hell of a planet that I never asked for???????
The amount of patience I have left for this life and the future........... is ZERO.......... every single day I think of drowning myself....... why is life sooooo damn difficult??????
It is very safe to say, it is just constantly one problem after another, with no end in sight. And I mean it in a way where I am already trying my absolute best. Just being an honest, positive, hard working human. I never bring trouble to anyone, or cause any unnecessary problems
But life just doesn't work like that. For some reason, endless problems just keep finding their way to you no matter what.... to give an example, its like one of those things where....
Just after you finally thought you resolved a problem that you didn't even cause in the first place, but now the pipes in your house start leaking. After you resolve that, then your car suddenly doesn't turn on. Then after you fix that, now suddenly a new neighbor moved in, that party louds every night, so you can't sleep properly anymore
Then after you finally move into a new place, just about to settle down, now a new family problem happens. Then after you resolve that, suddenly there is a new health issue to take care of. Then after all this unexpected distraction, now you suddenly need to get a second job, because now you're in debt, because all these issues delayed and messed up all your financial plans..... as the debt interests are just further adding up and compounding everyday
You're just consisting trying to fight, fight, fight..... just to keep falling backwards and instead trying to play catch up, never able to truly get ahead, despite how hard you try......... there is simply no light at the end of the tunnel
For something good to ever happen or just appear out of nowhere, it is sooooo damn difficult (near impossible), you can literally compare it to going to space.
But for negative things to just pop out of nowhere automatically and randomly without a single effort, and keep coming non-stop by the TRUCK LOAD, it is sooooo damn easy, as if you were just blinking an eye
I think this sums up life for some of us
I can't help but to think.......... what the fuck was I brought into????? Why the hell am I stuck inside this absolute hell of a planet that I never asked for???????
The amount of patience I have left for this life and the future........... is ZERO.......... every single day I think of drowning myself....... why is life sooooo damn difficult??????
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