Anybody else in here due to health problems?

[peacefulexit]

Wondering how many people are like me and have multiple health problems that make life unlivable. They also give me 24/7 anxiety and make me feel not good enough for this world. So, I'm out.

 

[dysthymia]

Yes, I also am suicidal over it. It's not my only reason but chronic pain adds fuel to the fire ya know

 

[mortuarymary]

I'd say 80% are here because of disability, mental health etc.

 

[rotciv]

Wondering how many people are like me and have multiple health problems that make life unlivable. They also give me 24/7 anxiety and make me feel not good enough for this world. So, I'm out.

same boat, how do u plan to do it.

 

[kotonearisato]

Yeah, it's a big contributing factor for me as well. It's like... why bother, I'll be in pain forever anyway.

 

[peacefulexit]

Hey guys thanks so much for all the replies. I'll get back to you all individually shortly.

same boat, how do u plan to do it.

Hanging. I'm in Australia where options are very limited. However, this does sound like a relatively straightforward and not overly painful method.

Yes, I also am suicidal over it. It's not my only reason but chronic pain adds fuel to the fire ya know

Thanks for sharing. I'm also in pain due to injuries. However, feeling absolutely too broken for life due to health problems is the main reason for me CTB asap. To make matters worse, some of my health problems are of the extremely embarrassing type that I can't even share with anybody. So, I'm choosing not to continue life now I'm no longer a man.

I'd say 80% are here because of disability, mental health etc.

Appreciate you sharing this. As I've had six months of constant health problems. From cancer to deformities no man would accept.

Nerve pain, eye problems, depression, ADHD, autism. It all sucks.

That's a bit of a list. Mine however are mainly physical - which then triggers intense anxiety. Cancer, colon issues, getting tested for heart problems, a disease that causes a bend that makes sex impossible among a whole heap of others. So yeah, I'm done.

 

[Minsu]

I would say the majority of people here is here because of physical/mental pain.
But yeah there are also some ppl here because of money issues/homelessness of course

 

[peacefulexit]

Yeah, it's a big contributing factor for me as well. It's like... why bother, I'll be in pain forever anyway.

Agree. I'm too embarrassed to live like this. I already feel like I deserve to be chucked in the bin.

I would say the majority of people here is here because of physical/mental pain.
But yeah there are also some ppl here because of money issues/homelessness of course

Thanks for chiming in. I guess mine is health prooblems which then made me feel extreme anxiety as I feel I'm no longer fit to live.

 

[Raindancer]

Yes, many health issues that have taken so many things from my life. I am so exhausted from fighting and seriously just don't know how much longer I can fight.

 

[no-name9859472882]

I'd say 80% are here because of disability, mental health etc.

Whys your name crossed out isn't that supposed to mean u ctb already?

 

[peacefulexit]

If anyone is comfortable sharing their health problems that lead to seeking CTB that would be helpful.

 

[ShadowsBeforeDawn]

I am here because of degenerative neurological and chronic pain issues but I am probably in a different place than most. I don't want to CTB, as long as I can manage current and future issues and keep a quality of life.

However, years ago, it got bad. I was in the ER 8 times in two weeks and nobody would listen to me. Called me a drug addict even though I refused all pain killers and made it clear I had an opioid allergy. I finally got to the point I let my family know I had a week to live and if nothing changed, I would be CTB. On day 5 of the 7 days, I went to the ER again and they finally listened. I got flown by helicopter and needed 17 hour emergency surgery. Recently, I started thinking about all of this and how I had no plan for Day 7 and what options I would have selected in desperation. If/when the time comes, I don't want to act in desperation and be even worse off, so that's why I'm here. I hope that day never comes and I never need to use all the helpful information everyone shares on SaSu.

 

[kotonearisato]

If anyone is comfortable sharing their health problems that lead to seeking CTB that would be helpful.

Happy to. I was diagnosed last year with EDS, a connective tissue disorder. My whole life I'd struggled with seemingly random, disconnected medical issues - weekly migraines, joints dislocating in bizarre ways, dizziness, terrible insomnia, stomach pain, chronic joint pain, etc etc. Then I was diagnosed with interstitial cystitis a few years ago. Funny enough, all of the other medical issues bothered me but weren't really a large factor when I was younger, mostly because I thought they'd be able to be fixed. It wasn't until the IC diagnosis which makes it painful to next to impossible to do anything intimate with my husband most days that I started to say, "wow, this is just one more thing..." Then finding out that all my other stuff was connected, and I was going to be in chronic pain for the rest of my life? It's exhausting to even think about having to deal with this until I'm elderly. No thanks.

 

[divinemistress36]

Whys your name crossed out isn't that supposed to mean u ctb already?

Someone said she went back to work so she probably disabled her account

 

[Final_Choice]

Not only because of health problems but it's a big part of it. I have a tumor in my head (not brain, just behind the eye ball) which causes me to lose my vision, pass out, and constantly get migraines among some other stuff. Additionally, I have dysautonomia and mental problems. I try not to let it bother me and just ignore it to try to live with it but it's hard when I can barely go for a few moments without being affected in some way.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Lupus, body neuropathy, eye neuropathy.

 

[peacefulexit]

I think the main reason I'm going to CTB is due to Peyronie's Disease. It causes a bent and unusable penis. Treatments don't sound very promising. I feel absolutely disgusting, and any chance of a relationship is now gone.

 

[no-name9859472882]

I think the main reason I'm going to CTB is due to Peyronie's Disease. It causes a bent and unusable penis. Treatments don't sound very promising. I feel absolutely disgusting, and any chance of a relationship is now gone.

What if you just angle it right couldnt you stil have sex?

 

[Joker2003]

I am diagnosed with 5 psychological disorders (Autism, ADHD, Gender Dysphoria, GAD, MDD), which all make life incredibly difficult.

I also suffer from Raynaud's phenomenon (my hands are always cold and hurt), stomach problems, and an MRI recently indicated that I have multiple brain lesions and demyelination.

I am meeting with a neurologist soon to see if I have Multiple Sclerosis.

 

[wanttodie]

yes I have a learning disability for, rest of my life and depression, sick of living like this and need to end my life

 

[peacefulexit]

Thanks to everybody for replying. This is helping me not to feel so alone in having multiple health problems all at once. I was certain I was the only one and was cursed.

What if you just angle it right couldnt you stil have sex?

Unfortunately, it bends to the left so that's rather hard to do. Also, it's nearly impossible to get an erection as I feel absolutely disgusted by the look of my penis. And I would be far too embarrassed for a woman to see my penis anyway.

 

[peacefulexit]

I should have mentioned, on top of all the health problems I've had to deal with over the past six months I've pretty much had 24/7 crippling anxiety for 20 years. I feel like I've tried everything, yet nothing has worked. It feels horrible to know that your own brain is your biggest cause of suffering.

 

[peacefulexit]

Not only because of health problems but it's a big part of it. I have a tumor in my head (not brain, just behind the eye ball) which causes me to lose my vision, pass out, and constantly get migraines among some other stuff. Additionally, I have dysautonomia and mental problems. I try not to let it bother me and just ignore it to try to live with it but it's hard when I can barely go for a few moments without being affected in some way.

Oh, I also get absolutely crippling anxiety. Lately, it's been 24/7. Completely floods my brain and body and makes life pure torture.

 

[peacefulexit]

yes I have a learning disability for, rest of my life and depression, sick of living like this and need to end my life

What will your method be?

 

[wanttodie]

What will your method be?

hanging

 

[peacefulexit]

Sa

hanging

Same as me! However, it sounds like a very hard to do method from what I've been reading here.

 

[SeaBreeze]

Epilepsy for 20+ years with a cause or cure never found. Now I wish my seizures were fatal, not just frustrating.

 

[peacefulexit]

Epilepsy for 20+ years with a cause or cure never found. Now I wish my seizures were fatal, not just frustrating.

This does sound like a pain. You're strong to have handled it for so long. I've had health problems for six months and I'm going to CTB.

 

[kavina]

Happy to. I was diagnosed last year with EDS, a connective tissue disorder. My whole life I'd struggled with seemingly random, disconnected medical issues - weekly migraines, joints dislocating in bizarre ways, dizziness, terrible insomnia, stomach pain, chronic joint pain, etc etc. Then I was diagnosed with interstitial cystitis a few years ago. Funny enough, all of the other medical issues bothered me but weren't really a large factor when I was younger, mostly because I thought they'd be able to be fixed. It wasn't until the IC diagnosis which makes it painful to next to impossible to do anything intimate with my husband most days that I started to say, "wow, this is just one more thing..." Then finding out that all my other stuff was connected, and I was going to be in chronic pain for the rest of my life? It's exhausting to even think about having to deal with this until I'm elderly. No thanks.

How do you even get a ic diagnosis? My male uro says oab over and over. I been to so many uro and uro gyns and it's just we don't know and prob not ic. had at least four or five cystoscoppies now and I'm still suffering. Twenty plus years of this. They give me anti cholinergics that I don't want due to dementia risk.

 

[kotonearisato]

How do you even get a ic diagnosis? My male uro says oab over and over. I been to so many uro and uro gyns and it's just we don't know and prob not ic. had at least four or five cystoscoppies now and I'm still suffering. Twenty plus years of this. They give me anti cholinergics that I don't want due to dementia risk.

God I'm sorry that's atrocious. I was actually sent around to a few uros and obgyns until I basically had a breakdown at my PCP and she agreed there was really nothing else it could be. After that conversation I was prescribed the low dose of Amitriptyline etc.

You might already do this, but a lot of my treatment comes from OTC stuff. I take cystex (easier on me than azo) pretty religiously, I use D. Mannose pretty much every day, and I was really careful to keep records of my symptoms so I could narrow down what was the likely cause of flare ups. For example I can absolutely not drink alcohol, it causes pain no matter what. Acidity can also be tough, so I add baking soda to a lot of things like tomato sauce etc. None of this is perfect but it usually mitigates things enough I can function. Idk if I have unlocked DMs yet but please feel free to message me if you need more help with it. It's awful and I'm sorry you're going through it too.