Discussion Anybody else enjoying LESS things you used to enjoy LOTS?

[WornOutLife]

Depression, anxiety and ctb thoughts are consuming me so much that I can't enjoy things I used to enjoy lots!

For instance, VIDEOGAMES! I love gaming but whenever I try to play something, I remember that I want to ctb and think: "what's the point of playing this?"

Another example, DATING!!! I think things like "Oh, nice girl, wanna meet her and know more about her and have some fun but, what's the point? I won't have a long-term relationship because I'm dying soon"

Can anyone relate? Damn! I never thought depression was such an as*hole!

 

[Sea Turtle]

Yep, trying to do anything is a battle between wanting to do it, and the little voice going "but it won't matter, nothing does, so go back in bed and sleep (:"

Cant seem to find the motivation to play games recently either

 

[WornOutLife]

Yep, trying to do anything is a battle between wanting to do it, and the little voice going "but it won't matter, nothing does, so go back in bed and sleep (:"

Cant seem to find the motivation to play games recently either

I feel you so much!
It's as if anything any normal person would do, is three times (or more) harder for us!
Hate this!

 

[descartes]

Depression, anxiety and ctb thoughts are consuming me so much that I can't enjoy things I used to enjoy lots!

For instance, VIDEOGAMES! I love gaming but whenever I try to play something, I remember that I want to ctb and think: "what's the point of playing this?"

Another example, DATING!!! I think things like "Oh, nice girl, wanna meet her and know more about her and have some fun but, what's the point? I won't have a long-term relationship because I'm dying soon"

Can anyone relate? Damn! I never thought depression was such an as*hole!

This exactly I take no enjoyment in anything the best I can do is distracted from the pain.

 

[Life_and_Death]

why not play video games? what are you gonna do just sit there doing nothing? might as well have a controller in your hand. and depending on the game each level or whatever can be like a little achievement :)

 

[WornOutLife]

why not play video games? what are you gonna do just sit there doing nothing? might as well have a controller in your hand. and depending on the game each level or whatever can be like a little achievement :)

I try to! I love videogames so much! They helped me out lots whenever I was sad and depressed but now...it seems not even they can help me! My mind is in suicide mode all day long :(

 

[Life_and_Death]

I try to! I love videogames so much! They helped me out lots whenever I was sad and depressed but now...it seems not even they can help me! My mind is in suicide mode all day long :(

what about maybe trying something new? theres lost of different hobbies and stuff out there aside from video games and it never hurts to have more then 1.

 

[WornOutLife]

what about maybe trying something new? theres lost of different hobbies and stuff out there aside from video games and it never hurts to have more then 1.

That's a good idea actually. I've been going for walks and jogging a bit and it felt good but the thing is depression hits me so hard that today, for example, I just spent my day in bed!

You're always so nice! Ty so much for your advice! You know you can also (and always) count on me right? <3

 

[*Hope*]

Honestly almost everything that was fun (meeting new people or watching shows,playing games etc) is now reminding me how much i want to ctb. Life has become so shallow its hard not to be consumed by my own mind for atleast an hour

 

[Life_and_Death]

You know you can also (and always) count on me right? <3

well i know now lol

 

[WornOutLife]

Honestly almost everything that was fun (meeting new people or watching shows,playing games etc) is now reminding me how much i want to ctb. Life has become so shallow its hard not to be consumed by my own mind for atleast an hour

You're exactly in my shoes! Hate this so much!

 

[NodusTollens]

Sorry you're experiencing thoughts like this. These kinds of thoughts feel a lot like circling the drain, my friend- I don't wish this on anyone, it's suffocating. HUGS.

I understand how you're feeling & depending on when you CTB, it kind of feels like living in the meantime-I feel like I have to live around my depression, when I have the energy because life never stops (which is exhausting).

I hope trying something new, or maybe going back to something you loved can help you shake the weight of this depression. :) But spend all the time you need in bed & rally when you can.

 

[Jarni]

This situation is difficult and it's complicated to advice smth... And many of us are in the same state of mind... :-(

Just some thoughts after reading some of your posts in general :-) : did you try to understand the origin of your depression and anxiety and totally delete these things? Like if you don't love your country (just a random example!), move to another one etc.?

As for me, I'm surely in a deep depression because of a physical illness and (try to) enjoy only seeing some good people. But even if I love(d) life in general before it, I get bored of things.

Since my early childhood I practiced 10000 things and was passionate about 10000 subjects and I have an impression that I understood how the things work in general (not very deeply for sure, even if I would like to know everything...) in this world and it lost their interest to me. Just because it is not new anymore in a way...

 

[WornOutLife]

This situation is difficult and it's complicated to advice smth... And many of us are in the same state of mind... :-(

Just some thoughts after reading some of your posts in general :-) : did you try to understand the origin of your depression and anxiety and totally delete these things? Like if you don't love your country (just a random example!), move to another one etc.?

As for me, I'm surely in a deep depression because of a physical illness and (try to) enjoy only seeing some good people. But even if I love(d) life in general before it, I get bored of things.

Since my early childhood I practiced 10000 things and was passionate about 10000 subjects and I have an impression that I understood how the things work in general (not very deeply for sure, even if I would like to know everything...) in this world and it lost their interest to me. Just because it is not new anymore in a way...

That's an interesting point of view and solution.

I've kinda tried that but the thing is, my mind gets so negative that I just can't even move!

This is because I'm bipolar. There are days in which I feel like a BOSS but some others, like today, I feel the worst human on earth. I'm taking meds and doing therapy but they don't help that much.

Anyway, thanks for your advice. I'll try to win this battle!

 

[Huntfish34]

Yep,. Right there with you sadly. I Used to game a bit back in the day but more so now I'm not hunting / fishing enjoying nature. My true passion and love for them has faded away with my Sick Fckn mind.

An ongoing , Constant and neverending battle with my head. Unwavering in it's ways. =\.

Prayers 2 you,. Take care.

Butch

 

[BandAddict]

Yes, I kind of dropped everything and laying in bed/sleeping/being on SS have become my only "hobbies". I don't see the point much anymore, and I think guilt has ruined all that even more for me. When this recent depressive episode started really coming on a few weeks ago, I started playing video games again to try and block everything else out and give myself some sense of accomplishment without as much weight to it. But then the guilt started pouring in with things like "you're so spoiled, why are you wasting time doing this shit? If you have the energy to play games, you have the energy to not be a piece of shit" and so on. I tried to ignore it but it became so fucking exhausting that now I don't have the energy to even want to play games. Now I can be a piece of shit for doing literally fuck all.

Edit:
I guess the best way to describe it is that anything I try to do feels like a selfish indulgence that I don't deserve. I don't know.

(Not speaking about anyone else, this thought only pertains to me)
You're not alone, it's hard to do anything when you feel submerged.

 

[Sallydeath]

Yes 200%

 

[Amumu]

For video games yes it doesn't make me feel good anymore
Dating I've never really tried so not really lolz

 

[Symbiote]

I play video games but doesn't feel as fun because my wife yelling at me about it or being annoyed with it. Too cold to go biking.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yeah I feel you. For me, video games are getting either too hard or too involved for me. I miss being able to get into a flow where I could play all night now I'm lucky if I can keep focused on any game for over two hours even if I'm having fun sometimes I get overwhelmed by any mental strain from them.

 

[Trisolaris]

I enjoy nothing except the thought of death.

 

[D11FER]

Mine was meeting new people getting to know them and mr happy go lucky. I used to enjoy/love sex giving pleasure rather than receiving.
all I do now is sleep get up make my bed and wait till I go to work at 6pm delivering people's food shopping get in at midnight sleep (with the help of lots of medication). And repeat this daily ! Just want to die and break this circle of shit up

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I feel exhausted too with it all. It feels like a vicious cycle of living just because my body says so. I'll be glad when it is all over tbh. Bored, tired and drained of all things life.

 

[Ath]

Yes. Everything I used to enjoy gone now.