Anybody else completely broken?

[throwaway123]

There is no fixing it and yet I keep trying every day. It's pointless. I'm trying to get to a point in life where I can minimize my suffering but my will to live is totally shattered. There is nothing left of me. No dreams, nothing. I've lost my spark years ago and I never got it back. It's just gone and the hole inside of me has turned into an all-consuming void. I wish I could somehow do something but nobody and nothing will ever come to help. No god no person nothing and nobody. We're all alone in this world no matter how hard we try to tell ourselves otherwise at the end of the day we're just letters on a screen.

 

[Ghost2211]

I know it's not the same, but you're not alone when you're here. I'll be your friend if you want. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so sad. What would make you feel at least a bit better?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

We're all alone in this world no matter how hard we try to tell ourselves

When I finally came to this realization it was a very hard pill to swallow.

I too have lost my "spark." All of my dreams and aspirations have died a long time ago. I wish I had some magic solution for this but unfortunately I don't...

 

[Painless_end]

Yes but for me the problem is that I already know all this and I want to end my life but havent been able to yet

 

[DockoftheBay]

There is no fixing it and yet I keep trying every day. It's pointless. I'm trying to get to a point in life where I can minimize my suffering but my will to live is totally shattered. There is nothing left of me. No dreams, nothing. I've lost my spark years ago and I never got it back. It's just gone and the hole inside of me has turned into an all-consuming void. I wish I could somehow do something but nobody and nothing will ever come to help. No god no person nothing and nobody. We're all alone in this world no matter how hard we try to tell ourselves otherwise at the end of the day we're just letters on a screen.

It's all consuming, never ending, unfightable, pure horror all day, every day. I'm so lucky to have people who love me but they can't do what's needed to take all this away. And when I go I have to hurt them too. This world has ruined me.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'm at that point now. I've just been feeling completely defeated.

 

[DyingAlf]

Yes, broken beyond repair.
Just want to die.

 

[fat feet]

Yes, broken beyond repair.
Just want to die.

I feel you.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Completely broken... yes, absolutely. I don't have enough mental clarity to put what I feel into words - and words alone don't even do the feeling justice.

I feel empty. Hollow. A pointless entity. So fucking tired. And yet, none of this comes remotely close.

 

[BetterInthanOut]

I can't tell you how much I relate- I've no ambition, no ability to get motivated for anything, just forcing myself to do things to seem normal to other people.

 

[fat feet]

There is no fixing it and yet I keep trying every day. It's pointless. I'm trying to get to a point in life where I can minimize my suffering but my will to live is totally shattered. There is nothing left of me. No dreams, nothing. I've lost my spark years ago and I never got it back. It's just gone and the hole inside of me has turned into an all-consuming void. I wish I could somehow do something but nobody and nothing will ever come to help. No god no person nothing and nobody. We're all alone in this world no matter how hard we try to tell ourselves otherwise at the end of the day we're just letters on a screen.

You have put my feelings into words.

 

[blickcity]

Losing my mind more by the day, getting hard to even plan ctb

 

[Captive of Mind]

I connected with every line in this message.. The last line stuck out to me and I have felt this too many times. But there are also times when I read posts like this and it is more than letters on a screen. There is a person with a heart, mind, and soul behind those letters and they understand me. We share an experience that the world around us doesn't have sympathy for. It brings comfort to me knowing that there is someone else out there who knows what this is like and I'm not the only one.

 

[Spitfire]

I've been thinking about what you wrote since reading it earlier, and I want to say it is very well written.

I thought I truly felt that way indefinitely for me too.

I don't know what it is? I can't figure out how there could still be something left unbroken? Apparently there is though.

A small piece of something is still inside burning away..

I don't know why?

 

[XYZ]

Completely broken.

Life has squashed me like a truck running over a kitten on the highway. There's nothing left but a few shattered bones and some gooey mush that used to be the soft tissue of my body.

I am roadkill.

 

[fat feet]

Completely broken.

Life has squashed me like a truck running over a kitten on the highway. There's nothing left but a few shattered bones and some gooey mush that used to be the soft tissue of my body.

I am roadkill.

I had someone refer to me as a doormat once. I think roadkill and doormat feel very much the same in this moment.

 

[XYZ]

I had someone refer to me as a doormat once. I think roadkill and doormat feel very much the same in this moment.

You know those doormats that say "OH SHIT, NOT YOU AGAIN!" ?

That'd be me if I was a doormat. He he he!