I mean I wouldn't call myself a musician but it's my greatest passion. I would have given up years ago if music did not exist. Ironically I don't think I'm a musician for the opposite reason as you. I've passed music theory exams with high distinction/honours but I suck at actually using it. Sure, I can play any chord or scale on the piano but my ability stops there. I guess I can play along with my favourite songs but only chords or melody. I can't do both at the same time. I don't have any muscle memory and I'm shit at controlling the dynamics. I'm terrible at actually playing the piano. I'm basically a beginner. My theoretical knowledge is higher than my ability to play and it sucks.
I'd give anything to have a good ear. Identifying ascending intervals is basically the only thing I can do. I realllllly need to improve descending intervals. I guess I can identify chord types but progressions? Forget it. I have a lot of work to do and I'm not a natural. I'm also very inconsistent with proper practice but that's my own fault. I had to sell my keyboard several months ago so like
it will be a while until I can practice that again. Currently I'm trying to learn the guitar but I can only do some scales and basic open chords. A couple of riffs I guess. I need to lower the action but I have no idea how and haven't gotten around to going to a music store. Idk. Maybe one day I will be intermediate with both guitar and piano.
Songwriting is so fun!! I've been doing it on and off since I was a kid. Right now I'm messing around with a DAW because I'd love to finish an entire song one day. With the production and everything. It's just a big learning curve. Right now my songs are just some chords written above the lyrics.