Anxiety

[gnomeboy17]

Is anyone's anxiety so bad they resort to suicide?

My life isn't too bad, my grades are good and I'm transgender but my parents are okay with it so my situation could be far worse...

BUT my anxiety is so bad, I can barely leave the house, certainly can't get a job. Can't do things like go to concerts or the theatre like most young adults do. I don't think I'll ever be able to keep a friend, let alone a romantic partner. The main reason I don't want to be alive is because I can't do anything. It's quite scary. :(

 

[sickInsominic42]

I'm sorry that your going through this. I have agoraphobia and I can understand that dealing with anxiety can be pretty bad. Do you get panic attacks from it? I get them just leaving to go to the doctors. Which is the only place I go to. I went from biting my nails to pulling on my hair to cutting. It helps distract but I don't recommend it. But if it works it works. How do you feel when you go out and surround yourself with people? Or just going out in general?

 

[gnomeboy17]

Do you get panic attacks from it? I get them just leaving to go to the doctors. Which is the only place I go to. I went from biting my nails to pulling on my hair to cutting. It helps distract but I don't recommend it. But if it works it works. How do you feel when you go out and surround yourself with people? Or just going out in general?

I don't think it's exactly a "panic" attack, more constant state of stress. It's a really weird type though, I'm COMPLETELY fine on my own, even when there's other people around, but as soon as there's someone I know (whether it's my parents/friends/colleagues) I just suddenly remain in a constant state of stress until I get home. It makes me feel physically sick and sometimes like IBS sort of thing.

 

[Tamazi 123]

Yup I'm here because my anxiety ruins my life.

 

[Oyoy]

I don't think it's exactly a "panic" attack, more constant state of stress. It's a really weird type though, I'm COMPLETELY fine on my own, even when there's other people around, but as soon as there's someone I know (whether it's my parents/friends/colleagues) I just suddenly remain in a constant state of stress until I get home. It makes me feel physically sick and sometimes like IBS sort of thing.

I'm allergic to family and my home town

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Have you talked ever talked to a trauma-informed therapist? This sounds like PTSD, not a generalized anxiety disorder, because it's situation-specific. If you're interested in pursuing, there may be treatment such as EMDR or emotional freedom technique to alleviate if not totally eradicate it. In my personal experience of PTSD, benzos helped some with symptoms but weren't curative, and CBT was a joke, the two treatments I mentioned had the most impact.

 

[sickInsominic42]

I don't think it's exactly a "panic" attack, more constant state of stress. It's a really weird type though, I'm COMPLETELY fine on my own, even when there's other people around, but as soon as there's someone I know (whether it's my parents/friends/colleagues) I just suddenly remain in a constant state of stress until I get home. It makes me feel physically sick and sometimes like IBS sort of thing.

Is it the same when people come to your home? Even if I have one person in my room I feel overwhelmed. It makes my stomach hurt and my mouth dry. I always feel like when someone is looking at me or talking to me they're talking to someone else. If that makes any sense. And I feel like I'm always saying it doing the wrong things and I get really nervous for no reason. That's why I always hide in my room or listen to music and I'm out so no one will talk to me. Even with medication it's still the same thing

 

[gnomeboy17]

Have you talked ever talked to a trauma-informed therapist? This sounds like PTSD, not a generalized anxiety disorder, because it's situation-specific. If you're interested in pursuing, there may be treatment such as EMDR or emotional freedom technique to alleviate if not totally eradicate it. In my personal experience of PTSD, benzos helped some with symptoms but weren't curative, and CBT was a joke, the two treatments I mentioned had the most impact.

I saw a therapist for the first time in a few years and she thinks it's down to my fear of having an allergic reaction, but I don't think it is that, it's sort of more general than that. I don't really know what it is, so I can't start doing anything about it...

 

[sickInsominic42]

Maybe you should try to write down your thoughts, reactions and feelings to different situations and compare them. See if they are the same. Then you can use the notes for when you talk to someone. That's what I did to figure out what was wrong with me.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I got too many problems to even list but anxiety is definitely one of them I wouldn´t even be able to go to another city to watch a movie in the cinema or go to the mall, basic stuff like that would stress me so much out yet other people do it without even thinking about it.

 

[Oyoy]

Maybe you should try to write down your thoughts, reactions and feelings to different situations and compare them. See if they are the same. Then you can use the notes for when you talk to someone. That's what I did to figure out what was wrong with me.

I feel like on this site we are writing down all our problems and when we read them we are breading pain. yet I keep on here.

 

[sickInsominic42]

I feel like on this site we are writing down all our problems and when we read them we are breading pain. yet I keep on here.

Good point. I stay here because I'm not alone anymore

 

[faust]

I know what you mean.
I don't have anxiety disorder, I have schizoaffective.
And anxiety is merely a part of it. I could not say I have strong one, but it is a disaster for me. It is like you are very tired and at the same time irritated. I used to experience real strong anxiety and this is not typical for me, but a "medium" anxiety is quite common (note: I feel it a little bit different and it has some differences to regular anxiety, so I would refrain from calling it anxiety, let it be "this"). Okay, so "this" makes me stay in bed very long, sometimes I feel kind of irritation and I don't want to stay in my body any more. Or just move because I am too anxious to lay in bed. "This" creates a brain fog and put some coal in the fire of derealization and depersonalization (seems this term is correct in English). And such a state does an influence on my desire to CTB. The thing is that stronger "this" I get in the morning after a night without sleep. It is not like I just want to go to bed, but it feels very uncomfortable and I have low chances to fall asleep. And "this" makes the life very uncomfortable.

 

[hershberger]

Anxiety/panic attacks are by far my biggest problem, so I completely understand your situation. I have a terrible time going out in public due to it. I haven't seen a movie in a theater in years, and going to any crowded store is almost impossible. I have great support from my psychiatrist and therapist, yet...well, I'm posting here, so that should tell you something. I wish I had something constructive to say to help you; all I can add is that I know how you feel, and I hate that anyone has to suffer with crippling anxiety.

 

[depressoandstresso]

Yes, definitely! You aren't alone in this.
My life isn't too bad, either, but my overwhelming anxiety makes me feel like I won't get anywhere in life, especially since most jobs require human interactions of some sort. I'm deathly afraid to talk to anyone except my friends and family (and even so, I just don't do it often), and talking to strangers is just, no.
It just seems that this world wasn't meant for the introverted, but I suppose it's nice to know that others feel this too.

Anyway, have a blurby cat <3