jigsaw_falling
if there’s an afterlife i’ll be pissed
- Jan 25, 2023
- 70
'anxiety' is one of those words that gets thrown around a lot, because of course everyone is anxious sometimes. so, in the past when people have said they suffer from anxiety or social anxiety, i really didn't understand how much that could effect them.
now i have awful anxiety, mainly social anxiety, and it's literally ruining my life. school is literally unbearable, panic attacks and breakdowns in class and in the bathroom every day. it makes me isolate myself, and honestly has made my suicidal ideation become so much stronger, to the point it's the only thing i think about.
i saw a psychiatrist this week, and got prescribed escitalopram for the anxiety. i was honestly so relived, because i don't think i can continue functioning with this much stress and self hatred and panic. but, looking into the side effects of antidepressants, weight gain is a potential one. i broke down while reading about how that probably won't, but MIGHT happen.
my psych doesn't want to prescribe me the one type of antidepressant that's not linked at all with weight gain, so i feel like my way of making life more unbearable is gone.
im just too terrified of putting on a lot of weight through taking meds, i cant bring myself to try.
im not making any progress in therapy, and lying to my therapist. and now i can't even manage my levels of anxiety. this sucks, i just want to go
now i have awful anxiety, mainly social anxiety, and it's literally ruining my life. school is literally unbearable, panic attacks and breakdowns in class and in the bathroom every day. it makes me isolate myself, and honestly has made my suicidal ideation become so much stronger, to the point it's the only thing i think about.
i saw a psychiatrist this week, and got prescribed escitalopram for the anxiety. i was honestly so relived, because i don't think i can continue functioning with this much stress and self hatred and panic. but, looking into the side effects of antidepressants, weight gain is a potential one. i broke down while reading about how that probably won't, but MIGHT happen.
my psych doesn't want to prescribe me the one type of antidepressant that's not linked at all with weight gain, so i feel like my way of making life more unbearable is gone.
im just too terrified of putting on a lot of weight through taking meds, i cant bring myself to try.
im not making any progress in therapy, and lying to my therapist. and now i can't even manage my levels of anxiety. this sucks, i just want to go