Venting Anxiety is eating me alive

[Killia]

I just need somewhere to get this off my chest - as the title suggests, anxiety (and paranoia) has been completely and utterly consuming me alive.
I keep constantly worrying about everything, from how I'm perceived in the online art spaces I'm in to even how I fucking eat a sandwich or something. I'm so sick of living like this, and I'm tired of not just CTB'ing already and saving myself all the stress and pain. I'm so tired and it just eats me alive at every waking moment no matter what I do. I just want it to stop. I don't personally consider myself a saint but I don't think I've done something so bad in life to deserve something like this, and I wouldn't wish it on anybody.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Sorry it's so constant for you. Mine's really bad today; supposedly I'm travelling across the country by myself. Writing that hasn't helped.

 

[Pluto]

Is there any medication that can help? Or indeed meditation?

 

[WornOutLife]

I know the hell you're going through.
My anxiety comes and goes away all the time.

This video really helps me to calm down, give it a try! It could help you too:

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Me too me too worrying about stuff constantly, paranoia about things people could do just completely ruins everything. Try medication if you haven't already, it helps me but I wish I could just be drunk 24/7 to be honest. Deciding that I will ctb has made me not worry about the future, I always used to now I don't care about it, whatever happens I can just quit it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I used to have this really bad as a teenager when I had to go to school and it made me physically sick. I've always been prone to it with my overactive thoughts and I get insomnia a lot. I hope you find some kind of relief as our minds sure like to torture us.

 

[AE2021]

I don't have any answers, but know exactly what you mean. Mine has been so bad occasionally that I had dissociative episodes which were very unsettling. I couldn't put my thoughts together to get engaged in a purposeful activity, even something as simple as washing my hair. Now I am on a very low does of Zoloft that helps take the edge off of the anxiety. By no means does it really resolve the problem, but I haven't disintegrated into pieces recently.

 

[Rolliewoo]

I feel your pain its an awful way to live and makes daily functioning so bloody difficult. Being trapped in your own head is like an actual living hell.
Hope you can somehow find something that helps you deal with the pain its causing you ❤

Me too me too worrying about stuff constantly, paranoia about things people could do just completely ruins everything. Try medication if you haven't already, it helps me but I wish I could just be drunk 24/7 to be honest. Deciding that I will ctb has made me not worry about the future, I always used to now I don't care about it, whatever happens I can just quit it all.

I can relate to this to a degree, when I found this site and decided my only route was ctb my levels of future worry did drop some for definite

 

[Killia]

To answer the medication questions, I've never been to something like a psychologist about this out of personal fears. I'm relieved, but saddened to hear that others have had the same kind of anxiety.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yes it becomes so intolerable I cannot leave the house

 

[Ch92921]

To answer the medication questions, I've never been to something like a psychologist about this out of personal fears. I'm relieved, but saddened to hear that others have had the same kind of anxiety.

There is very good medication against anxiety, tension and restless.

Insidon(Opipramol)

To answer the medication questions, I've never been to something like a psychologist about this out of personal fears. I'm relieved, but saddened to hear that others have had the same kind of anxiety.

Psychologist dont give medication, only psychiatrist.

 

[Killia]

Yes it becomes so intolerable I cannot leave the house

I get the same, too. Worse on days where I need to go do tasks or head to work or uni.

There is very good medication against anxiety, tension and restless.

Insidon(Opipramol)

Psychologist dont give medication, only psychiatrist.

I've never heard of this before, but then again, I've never looked into things like medications. Thank you for the advice on a specific one.
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[Bauhaus]

Opioids are the only thing that help for me.
You could try kratom, it's an opioid and it calms me down for several hours.
And I also take 100mg seroquel with it, gives a more sedated feeling.