Another hanging failure

[Apricity]

I tried partial three times tonight, but couldn't get past the gagging feeling and started coughing loudly. Had to abort before I woke anyone up. Anyone experience the same? I'd like to figure out how to get this done. The hanging mega thread hasn't proved very helpful. I've tried various positions for my rope with no success. It is 3/8 inch marine rope.
I sent an angry email to my nitrogen supplier asking where it was. I ordered it a month ago and it still hasn't shipped. I'd rather use that but my time and patience are wearing thin.

 

[Cannedbones]

I've also gagged a few times while practicing partial. I think it was a reflex to choking? I'm not sure. But I think I managed to find my sweet spot once. It felt strangely relaxing as I dozed off. However, I can't recall whether the rope was higher on my neck or lower..

 

[Lost Magic]

Can't you get access to Sodium Nitrite?

 

[Apricity]

Can't you get access to Sodium Nitrite?

I can, but i don't think I'd be able to drink it because of the saltiness of it. Also, I don't have medical insurance any more because I lost my job so i can't go tell my doc i have nausea.

Not sure where else to get meto, although there's someone on ss saying they'll tell you but then ghost after you say yes to "You're looking for Meto and in the US?" I think they're fishing.

 

[Apricity]

Tried again after my last post, but with a belt from a robe. I coughed and gagged so hard my wife woke up. I had untied everything by the time she came out, but she was very suspicious.

She sat and talked with me until I agreed to go lay in the bed with her. I asked her why she got up and she said because I was acting weird. I made a joke that I'm always weird and she said yeah but more than usual.

We ended up making love last night/this morning, it was so nice just to be close to her again after so long. I scheduled my note to be sent to her at 6:00 a.m. and forgot to unschedule it before I fell asleep and it sent. Thankfully she had not read it yet by the time I realized it, and I was able to go into her email and delete it.

I'm so conflicted right now, part of me wants to just go, but another part wants to stay in hopes that things will get better between us. I got a reply from the nitrogen supplier apologizing for the delay and promising delivery soon, so I'll probably give up trying to hang and just hang in there for a while instead (pun intended).

 

[316]

Sorry to hear about your struggle. Personally I had no luck with partial or Night Night, I just can't get that sweet spot. Hopefully your Nitrogen comes soon :)