TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
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As a kid, while growing up I remember watching the Olympic games on TV (grew up in the 90's) and I remember when I was in either elementary or middle school, people talked about how it was difficult to even qualify at the Olympic level, and also winning gold medal (or any medals at all).
Disclaimer: I'm not an athlete and I don't have any interest nor plans to get into sports, let alone competitive sports or at a very high level. This is just an anecdotal experience that influenced and shaped my view on CTB as an option, before I even delved into the topic and idea of CTB itself.
So sitting at home as a middle school kid, my father talked about how much training and sacrifice as well as how many people are able to make it to the top (this also applies to professional sports as well, NBA, NFL, NHL, you name it, etc.), and I said "So for those people who didn't make it or those who didn't quite get the gold (most prestigious and cherished award), what happens to those people then? Their dreams are crushed, defeated.." So he said "Well they would just fall back on other plans, either be a coach, a teacher, or find another profession altogether. They have to accept defeat and adapt." So that latter part didn't sit comfortably with me, and sure, while most people do end up adapting or doing other stuff when their dreams did not pan out, it can't be said for everyone universally! I said, well what happens if they didn't do that, and then my dad said "Well they have no choice, they have to accept it! Otherwise they must be irrational [and need (professional) help!]." This of course upset me seeing that one doesn't have a way out of torment or any disappointing or uncomfortable situation.
Of course, the answer was death. However, people don't like that word and it has a lot of negative connotations (after all, we are in a pro-life, life worshiping society!). But logically and with my curiosity, I meditated on that idea of death and it made sense to me. Not everyone can be the top, sometimes there are only one winner and the rest losers (Note: Not losers as in failure in life, but losers of a particular competition, event, or task!) and/or 2nd, 3rd, and so forth. Sure they are still greatly lauded and respected (maybe that's enough for them, but can't speak for all!), but it just isn't as great as they expected, perhaps even subconsciously, there is always some feeling of loss and suffering (albeit nobody admits to it, but maybe occasionally they have that disappointment and some do). So to me, I asked myself "What else are they going to do?" They are getting older and the opportunity for glory has long passed, the ship has sailed… they won't get that once in a lifetime opportunity again and have to live the rest of lives with their shattered, defeated dreams! It then occurred to me, well this taboo option that people keep evading, dodging, or even actively shunning and avoiding, 'death' perhaps that is an option. So then, it made sense and that death solves all the problems one is facing and while there is deprivation of future joy and pleasure, that is irrelevant because one is not sentient to experience the future joy, therefore it cannot be a deprivation of what never was there, it just never was a thing (similar to how people who were never born could never suffer, but I digress a bit).
In conclusion, developmental events and similar situations like these are certainly a factor in shaping my views on death, even before I recognized or learn of the right to die and CTB. For me, it made the most logical sense because beyond coping and just accepting defeat (which for some people is not an option, be it they don't want to or they are not capable of doing so, or both), then death is indeed a valid option and solution. It is sad that most people (the mainstream populace, the normies) see death as some horrible outcome that is to be avoided, deferred, and/or even buried (out of sight, out of mind) at all costs, when in fact it is the most logical (and natural – all living things will perish at some point).
Disclaimer: I'm not an athlete and I don't have any interest nor plans to get into sports, let alone competitive sports or at a very high level. This is just an anecdotal experience that influenced and shaped my view on CTB as an option, before I even delved into the topic and idea of CTB itself.
So sitting at home as a middle school kid, my father talked about how much training and sacrifice as well as how many people are able to make it to the top (this also applies to professional sports as well, NBA, NFL, NHL, you name it, etc.), and I said "So for those people who didn't make it or those who didn't quite get the gold (most prestigious and cherished award), what happens to those people then? Their dreams are crushed, defeated.." So he said "Well they would just fall back on other plans, either be a coach, a teacher, or find another profession altogether. They have to accept defeat and adapt." So that latter part didn't sit comfortably with me, and sure, while most people do end up adapting or doing other stuff when their dreams did not pan out, it can't be said for everyone universally! I said, well what happens if they didn't do that, and then my dad said "Well they have no choice, they have to accept it! Otherwise they must be irrational [and need (professional) help!]." This of course upset me seeing that one doesn't have a way out of torment or any disappointing or uncomfortable situation.
Of course, the answer was death. However, people don't like that word and it has a lot of negative connotations (after all, we are in a pro-life, life worshiping society!). But logically and with my curiosity, I meditated on that idea of death and it made sense to me. Not everyone can be the top, sometimes there are only one winner and the rest losers (Note: Not losers as in failure in life, but losers of a particular competition, event, or task!) and/or 2nd, 3rd, and so forth. Sure they are still greatly lauded and respected (maybe that's enough for them, but can't speak for all!), but it just isn't as great as they expected, perhaps even subconsciously, there is always some feeling of loss and suffering (albeit nobody admits to it, but maybe occasionally they have that disappointment and some do). So to me, I asked myself "What else are they going to do?" They are getting older and the opportunity for glory has long passed, the ship has sailed… they won't get that once in a lifetime opportunity again and have to live the rest of lives with their shattered, defeated dreams! It then occurred to me, well this taboo option that people keep evading, dodging, or even actively shunning and avoiding, 'death' perhaps that is an option. So then, it made sense and that death solves all the problems one is facing and while there is deprivation of future joy and pleasure, that is irrelevant because one is not sentient to experience the future joy, therefore it cannot be a deprivation of what never was there, it just never was a thing (similar to how people who were never born could never suffer, but I digress a bit).
In conclusion, developmental events and similar situations like these are certainly a factor in shaping my views on death, even before I recognized or learn of the right to die and CTB. For me, it made the most logical sense because beyond coping and just accepting defeat (which for some people is not an option, be it they don't want to or they are not capable of doing so, or both), then death is indeed a valid option and solution. It is sad that most people (the mainstream populace, the normies) see death as some horrible outcome that is to be avoided, deferred, and/or even buried (out of sight, out of mind) at all costs, when in fact it is the most logical (and natural – all living things will perish at some point).
All it takes is one kid to tell their rich parents they want to become a popular singer or a professional sports player, and they will most likely get it.
