This is all I do. Jerk off to porn or ERP with people. That's how I cope. Erotic Roleplaying with people helps me feel good and culls the loneliness for a second. I am disgusted by it all. I am a slave to my sexual desire. But I can't stop, and won't stop, because it is the only thing that makes me feel good. Of course, I wouldn't focus on killing myself until shit hits the fan. I have NO control over myself. It is pathetic. I am stuck in a painful limbo. I am going nuts.
