allym101

allym101

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May 29, 2020
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I'm so fucking tired. I just want to be dead. I've been practicing trying to pass out every night for the past week and the farthest I've got is my head feeling like it's going to explode. I'm terrified that when my day arrives my method will somehow miraculously backfire. I need to make myself pass out with this rope but I CAN'T AND ITS PISSING ME OFF.
 
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these_days9

these_days9

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Dec 25, 2019
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For what it's worth (not much probably) you're not alone. ❤❤ It's super frustrating to want something so badly. I would say hang in there with pun intended but I don't know your sense of humor...also I don't mean it as any kind of encouragement. Just hope you feel better.
 
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signifying nothing

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Stop trying, rest, distract yourself a while.
 
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Basically my method of choice. Welcome to the club!
As a fellow member here said to me once - Maybe we just have to hog - fight the pain? : /
Couldn't agree more with you on the fact that it feels like a person's head is a melon that is about to burst when attempting.
 
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Silver

Silver

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Aren't you using a dressing gown cord? It might be too thick
 
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allym101

allym101

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Aren't you using a dressing gown cord? It might be too thick
That's what I've been thinking. Might go out to the hardware store sometime this week and buy a rock climbing rope.
Basically my method of choice. Welcome to the club!
As a fellow member here said to me once - Maybe we just have to hog - fight the pain? : /
Couldn't agree more with you on the fact that it feels like a person's head is a melon that is about to burst when attempting.
That kinda sucks but honestly I'm willing to take a minute of pain compared to the shit I face everyday.
For what it's worth (not much probably) you're not alone. ❤❤ It's super frustrating to want something so badly. I would say hang in there with pun intended but I don't know your sense of humor...also I don't mean it as any kind of encouragement. Just hope you feel better.
Thank you, you're very kind
 
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