Annoyed by Pleasure

[Celerity]

I know I should want my last moments on Earth to be peaceful. I know I'm being stupid.

That said, I really want the anhedonia to get a move on already and get back here. I want to be in the perfect state of mind to CTB, and my old friend will do the trick.

Every momentary pleasure or ounce of hope I feel keeps me tethered to this earth and in anguish about all I don't have.

I just want to be numb. I don't want to feel anything but what is necessary to keep me basically alive until I'm prepared to CTB.

 

[motel rooms]

If only we could control how we feel...

This game is pretty anhedonia-inducing, one might even call it a legit suicide method -
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/counting-game.10053/

 

[Celerity]

If only we could control how we feel...

This game is pretty anhedonia-inducing, one might even call it a legit suicide method -
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/counting-game.10053/

Lol, you're right. We have the absolute worst thread games. Not super surprising but still...

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand what you mean. Most of the time I have complete anhedonia and I kinda feel numb to everything. Even if sometimes I feel the tiniest bit of pleasure it is soon taken away and it is painful. It is better to feel nothing and this is the best mindset to go into when thinking about ctb. I think insomina makes my anhedonia worse.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

You can have mine.

 

[Beachedwhale]

If only we could control how we feel...

This game is pretty anhedonia-inducing, one might even call it a legit suicide method -
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/counting-game.10053/

LOL what is this

Fitting!

 

[motel rooms]

LOL what is this

Fitting!

People are unironically playing it, dude!