
Caffeineaddiction
Caffeine is my only source of happiness.
- Dec 18, 2024
- 13
I've been feeling really shitty lately, and it's mostly due to other people in my life, or circumstances that I can hardly control like my insomnia. I met up with my parents and my mother told me that "maybe I should find a girlfriend", a statement at which I scoffed. I really really tried liking people, and making friends, and finding a girlfriend and it's always just people hurting other people, unneccesary drama, and a lot of energy and effort being put into something that just isn't worth it. Maybe I'm the problem, but I feel like every time I try to reach out to people I just get hurt due to their incompetence. But maybe I'm just soft, or maybe I'm too incompetent to notice my own idiocracy which would make a hypocrite. I don't know, and I really am trying but every single thing, just pushes me deeper into this hole of despising everyone around me, and whenever I try to talk to someone about it they just tell me to "ignore them and think positive" or that "it's gonna get better". Well no it fucking doesn't. Ignoring the problem doesn't solve it. I've been hurt ever since I was born. First by mx father, then by schoolmates, then by a host-father, and then there is also this whole systematic bullshit that I'm stuck in, which constantly obstructs me and can't get out of, and no one else seems to see a problem with the fact that everyone is unhappy because of problems THEY created or allowed to happen and they keep blaming others. And I'm doing my best to not be like that, and maybe sometimes I fail but I'm only human too. But these people aren't doing shit. They're ignorant incompetent buffoons, who think the world of themselves and then cry when their fragile ego gets bruised. Anyway, I just thought maybe it would be nice to create a community where we can talk about things like this. Hence "AA for Misanthropes". And maybe we can share coping strategies for dealing with the people around us, or shed light on some other ways of thinking so we can be at peace even if we're too big of pussies to go through with eternal sleep.