Discussion Am the only son to my Mom and Dad

[Jojo81]

Am 40 years now.. It already kills when I think about CTB leaving them alone in their old age without being near to them

 

[XYZ]

Ctb is hard for me too coz I have really decent parents and they don't have much time left on Earth. It's killing me to cast a dark shadow over the last years of their life.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Am 40 years now.. It already kills when I think about CTB leaving them alone in their old age without being near to them

Ctb is hard for me too coz I have really decent parents and they don't have much time left on Earth. It's killing me to cast a dark shadow over the last years of their life.

I understand your pain. I think about it as well. I have siblings so I'm hoping they can take care of them. I don't want to cause my parents any pain either.

 

[Und0n]

I understand your pain. I think about it as well. I have siblings so I'm hoping they can take care of them. I don't want to cause my parents any pain either.

I lost a family member like hours ago.
Now I don't know what to do I wish I died when I had the chance

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I lost a family member like hours ago.
Now I don't know what to do I wish I died when I had the chance

Sorry for your loss. Wish I could give you some good advice. I know you don't want to put family members in even more pain.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm my grandfather's only son's only son which is apparently a pretty big deal in my culture. Too bad I won't get to make the cycle continue.

 

[rt1989526]

I'm declaring my parents as my beneficiary for my banking accounts and retirement funds, etc so they'll atleast get some cash when I'm gone. It sucks but this decision is about what you want.

 

[Jojo81]

I'm my grandfather's only son's only son which is apparently a pretty big deal in my culture. Too bad I won't get to make the cycle continue.

I seriously keep thinking why I had married and had a daughter to keep the cycle continuing. Am currently only worried about my parents who are old. And believe me I am actually wishing for their peaceful departure so that I can ctb peacefully but I don't know how long I can wait

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I seriously keep thinking why I had married and had a daughter to keep the cycle continuing. Am currently only worried about my parents who are old. And believe me I am actually wishing for their peaceful departure so that I can ctb peacefully but I don't know how long I can wait

My grandfather already died earlier this year so he won't get to feel the disappointment. My dad might still be alive by the time I'm gone but I don't care. It can be tough for my parents who I do care about leaving behind like my mom for me but sometimes that just seems like the way it has to be.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I'm and only child as well and it's like a double curse. I feel like if I ctb lll be a murderer because it will kill my mom. I don't want to do this to hee as she is aging and she will have no one to help her but I just can't take much more. I'm trying so so hard to stay alive for her and my partner since they are both older but I just don't know if I can anymore.

 

[Gratefulcorpse]

I'm also the only child to my mom and she is trying her best to keep me alive, paying for my psychiatric medication, but she doesn't understand that I want to leave this realm. Although she knows about my previous suicide attempts she thinks the medication has cured me or something but that's not the case. Honestly, this is one of the reasons why I'm still here. So sad.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I can relate. The only thing that keeps me away from ctb is the people who love me.

 

[Jojo81]

Someone here earlier said that in a big scheme of the world we are a dot or speck. But to family we are their universe... How True... I really liked that part.. But that is the exact part killing me everyday.. If I had come to this forum 2 or 3 years before I would have really not tried to quit my job and would have accepted the rat race and kept going with my job till my parents were gone.

 

[Existingnotliving]

Am 40 years now.. It already kills when I think about CTB leaving them alone in their old age without being near to them

My Sister died when I was 16 and even though I'm not close with my parents it kills me to think of leaving them childless :( Such a shit situation to be in, I wish I didn't care about other people.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

Maybe if you pass on your genes it will be less a tragedy, because you bloodline won't come to a halt. You will live through you child.

 

[Existingnotliving]

Maybe if you pass on your genes it will be less a tragedy, because you bloodline won't come to a halt. You will live through you child.

But then you leave your child without a parent which passes on unnecessary suffering?

 

[Ghost2211]

It must be hard for a parent to bury their child (of any age). I hope I can hold out till after my grandma passes.

At the same time people die everyday. Death is a tragic part of a tragic life.

 

[Jojo81]

Some people are depressed because they are alone.. Not having anyone to love them.

Some people are depressed because of inability to CTB due to their loved ones

Some people are depressed because they don't have money.

Some people are depressed even when they have more money

Some people are depressed and I really feel sad for those who are born physically I'll or with physical disability

Others are depressed even when they are not physically disabled..

Some don't have time.. I have time after unemployed but don't know what to do..

Health + wealth + love + time = Life

 

[Bauhaus]

Am currently only worried about my parents who are old. And believe me I am actually wishing for their peaceful departure so that I can ctb peacefully but I don't know how long I can wait

I'm in the same boat. I wished I had siblings.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I'm an only child and the last in my family name, feels strange to be the end of the line. I wish I had a sibling, I hate how everything was invested in me.

 

[Eren]

I'm an only child and the last in my family name, feels strange to be the end of the line. I wish I had a sibling, I hate how everything was invested in me.

I understand you, I don't have siblings either. I feel even more guilty for my parents being an only child.

 

[GonnaGoBye]

I am also an only child, but it pains me more because my mom is a single mom. She raised me all by herself and now she sees me in this state of me wanting to ctb. It hard. I'm sad.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I am also an only child, but it pains me more because my mom is a single mom. She raised me all by herself and now she sees me in this state of me wanting to ctb. It hard. I'm sad.

I know it's easy for me to say, but you better find a way to keep on going, otherwise all her effort will have been for nothing. At least in my case my parents' genes have lived on through my brother's kids.

I'm actually imagining scenarios in which I might have kids, but they're becoming increasingly far fetched.

 

[GonnaGoBye]

I know it's easy for me to say, but you better find a way to keep on going, otherwise all her effort will have been for nothing. At least in my case my parents' genes have lived on through my brother's kids.

I'm actually imagining scenarios in which I might have kids, but they're becoming increasingly far fetched.

Well lucky for you.. And I don't have a better way to keep living so sorry for that one. I'm even afraid now to go outside.

 

[Silver]

I'm an only child and the last in my family name, feels strange to be the end of the line. I wish I had a sibling, I hate how everything was invested in me.

Same here. I feel guilty about it.

I am also an only child, but it pains me more because my mom is a single mom. She raised me all by herself and now she sees me in this state of me wanting to ctb. It hard. I'm sad.

I was raised by a single parent too. I have been such a failure to him.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Am 40 years now.. It already kills when I think about CTB leaving them alone in their old age without being near to them

I understand this. I'm an only child too. If you ctb, at least they'll have each other. They will miss you immensely, but they will at least have find comfort in one another.