Suffering is suffering. The fact that you're here says enough. Please don't add more unnecessary suffering by comparing yours to theirs, if you can. Internal struggles without external influence can be even more isolating as it can't be seen, understood, or acknowledged by others. We're here for you, I know how much an internal hell can be. Our realities are shaped by our minds. External, or internal makes no difference.
I'd argue that most suicides are driven by majority internal factors, and internal torment can sometimes be much more unrelenting than anything external can provide. After all, if your mind is anything like most on this site, you live with your abuser 24/7, and he just happens to control your entire experiential world. If possible, please try to be easier on yourself, at least in that regard. Your suffering is deep and very real. You deserve to have it acknowledged and cared for.
The perception that suffering or pain should be measured by external factors is unfortunately an outdated and ignorant mindset that ignores mental illness. Our brains that dictate how we perceive, think, and experience in the world are functionally and/or structurally damaged. If someone had no legs, or was paraplegic with no limbs, we would see it and automatically acknowledge the pain and hardship they must have to go through everyday. Unfortunately with severe mental illnesses, this pain and daily struggle is not readily seen, and much less understood. Many of the symptoms aren't really conceivable, and trying to relate it to someone who hasn't experienced it is much more difficult than their ability to imagine life without limbs. More times, certain symptoms, thoughts, or emotions are so depressing, jarring, or disturbing that it would be inappropriate to share and concerning to the listener.
On top of the immense suffering people with severe mental illnesses face, what may be the worst and at least most alienating part of it all, is just how isolating it is to have. The lack of understanding, the inability to relate, the ignorance and invalidation, the loneliness…it just piles on to an already awful disease(s). You wouldn't tell a fellow soldier who lost their legs at war to just get up and walk because you "also went to war and can walk just fine". You can see they have no legs, and can reason that their circumstances must have been different, even though you both experienced a similar event. Unfortunately, this grace and understanding is seldom afforded to those with mental illnesses. And its understandable as to why; its an invisible kind of suffering that can't be seen nor experienced by most others.