Help Am I the Asshole!

[Darkest.Mind-]

In this thread we will discuss about our situations that we're stuck in and try to figure out that are we the bad guy(Asshole) in that situation.
pretty sure I am tho , I'm an asshole and a hypocrite and a coward as I can't do anything bout my life can't even end it.

 

[absolomonisgone]

Thank you for being asshole if it make you have joy and happiness it is okay.

 

[zenishere]

You are actually not alone in this.

I have been trying to do it for the last couple of months, but... I just can't bring myself to do it. I walk up the stairs to the spot I think I'll walk to for the last time of my life. I look down.... hopeless people like little ants who don't know they can get crushed anytime by the brutality of the world's feet.... and I think to myself what it did to me, what it gave me and then took away... "This is it," I say and then it comes: I feel a nostalgic fear growing instantly to its fullest, I start to become dizzy, my whole body starts to lose temperature and I get back... before I even have the time to process everything.

Every time I go up to that spot knowing that I'll do it this time and every time I get cold feet. I am a coward too...

 

[Darkest.Mind-]

You are actually not alone in this.

I have been trying to do it for the last couple of months, but... I just can't bring myself to do it. I walk up the stairs to the spot I think I'll walk to for the last time of my life. I look down.... hopeless people like little ants who don't know they can get crushed anytime by the brutality of the world's feet.... and I think to myself what it did to me, what it gave me and then took away... "This is it," I say and then it comes: I feel a nostalgic fear growing instantly to its fullest, I start to become dizzy, my whole body starts to lose temperature and I get back... before I even have the time to process everything.

Every time I go up to that spot knowing that I'll do it this time and every time I get cold feet. I am a coward too...

I feel like that every single time, whenever I come up with a method to do ctb(that I spent hours and days researching bout) and end it all my inner coward self just keeps bugging me and telling me to Not do it and when I don't I instantly regret it and have the urge to fo it but can't as … I'm a freaking coward
not to mention that I'm an asshole and a hypocrite and Im pretty dure I have destroyed a lot of lives and I'm sure that I I'll continue to do so if i don't end it all but I can't end it …
im too scared of death.

 

[Sulyya]

I'm the asshole at work in a way - low motivation and high anxiety cause me to make troublesome situations for other people.

I feel like that every single time, whenever I come up with a method to do ctb(that I spent hours and days researching bout) and end it all my inner coward self just keeps bugging me and telling me to Not do it and when I don't I instantly regret it and have the urge to fo it but can't as … I'm a freaking coward
not to mention that I'm an asshole and a hypocrite and Im pretty dure I have destroyed a lot of lives and I'm sure that I I'll continue to do so if i don't end it all but I can't end it …
im too scared of death.

Death and life both scary - I understand. Can you do anything to improve the people's lives, even if just to make yourself less tormented by it?

 

[Himalayan]

I think your sub conscious say when you are the bad person or not. The rest is just mental gymnastics

 

[Darkest.Mind-]

I'm the asshole at work in a way - low motivation and high anxiety cause me to make troublesome situations for other people.


Death and life both scary - I understand. Can you do anything to improve the people's lives, even if just to make yourself less tormented by it?

life definitely is scary and it sucks

 

[Danielwc]

Don't forget that you are a human being and no human being is perfect. We all have negative traits and behaviors. This is the word of the relative and we do often learn and grow at each other's expense. We are all hypocrites to some degree. As for cowardice, it's pretty natural to want to avoid conflict, danger and pain. Many of us have enough of that in our minds already without taking on more.

 

[Darkest.Mind-]

Don't forget that you are a human being and no human being is perfect. We all have negative traits and behaviors. This is the word of the relative and we do often learn and grow at each other's expense. We are all hypocrites to some degree. As for cowardice, it's pretty natural to want to avoid conflict, danger and pain. Many of us have enough of that in our minds already without taking on more.

ihv got no words
thank u I … I … this was helpful.
and I loved the reply.
thank you.