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inkognito
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- Jun 27, 2023
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I feel so utterly lost and I have been for a while, but there's like a void in my stomach that nothing in the fridge can fill.. I have this sickening empty feeling that eats me up from the inside and its agonising to the point it's killing me.
I feel selfish for wanting to stop it because other people and even my own family members are going through worse. To be real with you all, I don't think I'd go out of my way to kill myself. But if a car was passing by at speed I wouldn't hesitate to walk infront of it. I used to wonder what everyone who knew me would think of me after I died or if they cared, but I don't care what anyone thinks anymore. I heard a saying once; " if you're not ready to kill yourself while you're naked, you don't really want to die at all" or something along those lines and I was so confused on what it meant. I understand now. It means you care too much about how people will see you after you've done it. Idk what I'm getting at here. I hope it makes sense.
Anyway.. How do I stop abusive parents? Can they be stopped? Or is it like when you were a child and you grew out of drawing on the walls because you realised it was wrong? I hope so anyway. I don't want to leave this world behind if my parents aggression were to turn on my sisters.
I feel selfish for wanting to stop it because other people and even my own family members are going through worse. To be real with you all, I don't think I'd go out of my way to kill myself. But if a car was passing by at speed I wouldn't hesitate to walk infront of it. I used to wonder what everyone who knew me would think of me after I died or if they cared, but I don't care what anyone thinks anymore. I heard a saying once; " if you're not ready to kill yourself while you're naked, you don't really want to die at all" or something along those lines and I was so confused on what it meant. I understand now. It means you care too much about how people will see you after you've done it. Idk what I'm getting at here. I hope it makes sense.
Anyway.. How do I stop abusive parents? Can they be stopped? Or is it like when you were a child and you grew out of drawing on the walls because you realised it was wrong? I hope so anyway. I don't want to leave this world behind if my parents aggression were to turn on my sisters.