Venting always wanted to die

[zuksmth]

i dont know why i was born i just wish someone else was born in my place am nothing i dont even wanna live ive never wanted to live even when i was fucking 10 i wish i died i only wish someone else was given birth to, my dad was really abusive he tried murdering me when i was 6 months old and then when i was 10 when me and mom finally ran away she ran away alot of times but always come back theyre finally divorced but i had to live in my grandma's house for 2 years during covid after i came back and lived with my mom slowly she shouted at me so much so i completely stopped talking to her and she's always in my face that oh you wanna move out oh you dont love me but how can i she always shouted, its annoying so fucking annoying she even faked cancer to make me stay but i plan to end my life this october

 

[FuneralCry]

I've also always wished to just not exist, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, I hope that you find what you search for.