Always saying the wrong thing

[woofwag]

I do it every time and always put people off. Am I stupid or something? (yes)


I still rip my hair out over things I've said wrong over twelve years ago. And I continue to do it, so clearly I'm going bald (not really but you get it). Like every single day, I say a new dumb thing. I'm glad people are patient with me or I'd have no friends. But idk. How does anyone live when they fuck up every single social interaction ever? It's part of the reason I avoid people. Even online, I mostly lurk. I'm just so bad at it. Aren't I meant to be a social creature? This is supposedly my whole deal, being someone who's studied social behaviors very rigorously. I was looking up "how to talk to people" and going on deep dives since I was eleven. When will I get good at this shit?? (never)

Anyway I've noticed that embarrassment is one of the major triggers for my suicidal ideation, so I am kinda just always plagued by looming feelings of being a social disaster as well as being a generalized disaster. I'm lucky people think I'm kinda cute and pathetic. Otherwise I'd probably have killed myself years ago. Or not. Turns out I'm really bad at everything, including trying to ctb.

 

[Sheisgoneee]

Stop beating yourself up. Your friends probably find it cute, and as humans we all feel awkward in social situations because of the deep desire to connect with each other. We've talked a lot, and even from your texting style I could see you have a social butterfly in you. You are not stupid, or whichever wrong adjective you want to glue to yourself. You are you, you are perfect the way you are, and believe me only good people over examine themselves like that

 

[woofwag]

Stop beating yourself up. Your friends probably find it cute, and as humans we all feel awkward in social situations because of the deep desire to connect with each other. We've talked a lot, and even from your texting style I could see you have a social butterfly in you. You are not stupid, or whichever wrong adjective you want to glue to yourself. You are you, you are perfect the way you are, and believe me only good people over examine themselves like that

Thank you for saying this I feel like sometimes I get nervous about silence and say too much at once, which often leads me to saying stupid bullshit. I can't flirt for shit. No idea how to comfort people. I want to try, and I keep trying. It just feels so impossible sometimes. Especially on days like these. I made a couple social faux pas today and it's killing meeeeee ugh. I want to just hide in my room all day now. But I still have to at least talk to my roomie again for help with my shot today so... wish me luck ig haha

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

I don't remember the exact details from the last time we talked, or some info from your other posts but iirc (and correct me if I am wrong) you already have certain people who care for you and want to spend time with you, so I assume it is not yet all doom and gloom for you, treasure those people, they are the real ones.

As for interactions with new/unfamiliar people, it happens to all of us, don't think too much about it, eventually someone will come to appreciate you for being you and make extra moves to comfort you in a convo and form real bonds with you, I am certain of it because you seem like a wonderful person to talk to and be around, plus u have very interesting hobbies, and who doesn't love those?

 

[OnnanokoNiNaritai]

I would gi e a 350 word awnser to this but im too sleepy for it so, dont hate yourself, ur beautiful, u arent annoying and your friends find u cute cuz u are
Im sry im too sleepy to rationally think, im just writing this cuz iwould not be able to sleep thinking i could have made someone potentially happier.
Kisses
Im here if u need me