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InaccessibleHour
Student
- Sep 1, 2018
- 143
I haven't been here very long, but I was very glad I came across this site when I did, and regretted I didn't check it out sooner when I first seen it a while ago. Because it was an open web site, and several weeks ago I was thoroughly searching the Dark Web in hopes of encountering a pro death, or preferably, a pro choice website due to there being generally kinder people on there, which by the way never happened, but I think I did get close, I assumed this was just another out of a long list of "pro life" forums filled with people who deserve a better place to chat hopelessly and desperately asking for a way out, others asking you not to take your own life, recommending you to lifeline, no discussion of ways to CTB allowed, anti choice and death, etc. I did notice the "Sanctioned" part but I was looking for a place where I could get help with ways to CTB, and I thought all this place would offer is a place to chat for terminally ill people who support each other's choice, but still no discussion allowed. Day by day, I wasted time away on the Dark Web desperately trying to find a chatroom who'd actually offer help and easy, painless, and quick ways to CTB. Little did I know I was wasting my time, and I was wasting what little left of a life I have away when there was a great forum, on the open web, to discuss these very things. How stubborn I was, unwilling to give the open web a chance and denying any shadow of a hope there was a place like this there. When I seen this site initially, I passed it by, not knowing the gold mine of tips and tricks I was missing. The pro choice, kind people here? Just the icing on the cake. Too bad I found it when I only had a week or two left to live.. on the other hand, it could have been for the better, seeing as I then wouldn't have to waste a bunch of time wondering how I should go about this, but still have a decent look at everything and choose the option best for me.
Enough blabber talk of the story of how I found this site. I have already posted quite a few comments on here already, and even started to create friendships, but they probably won't last too long. This is the first actual "post" I have created on the site, and possibly the last, if tonight's the night. It's too bad I couldn't stay here longer, because this is a very kind, respectful, pro choice community, which is a great place to hang out nonetheless besides the CTB talk, but I knew when I created an account on this site I didn't have a lot of time to discuss tips and tricks, let alone hang out. I needed to get out of here within a week, two weeks tops. I already feel a connection with a few people on this site, which I know isn't a good thing as these people will probably be a touch bummed when I'm gone, and I probably won't ever see you guys again.
Alas, my time here is just about up. I have chosen the way out of here I think is best, and I'm carrying it out as soon as I feel I can do it safely and without being caught. As for when, it's probably gonna either be tonight or tomorrow night. If I don't do it by then, any of the two following nights will do. Sunday night is a LAST RESORT if I don't do it by then, and if I don't by Sunday night I'm disowning myself. For any of you who want to know how I'm gonna be CTB, it will be a combination of creating hydrogen sulfide gas from household products, which pretty much kills you as easily as CO but can be created easier at the trade off of smelling a little worse, which should take me out right away provided I create enough of it. As a back up I've got partial suspension while I create the H2S in the event it somehow doesn't kill me on its own. There's no way it won't at least knock me out, and if I lose consciousness but don't die right away, the noose will do the rest for me.
No way this can go wrong, provided I get at least half an hour of alone time, tops. The H2S should kill me right away, but the partial suspension is just a backup in the event it only knocks me out.
If you'd like to know more about how to die by H2S, hit up @Death_From_Above. They have some good info on how to do this, and is the person who recommended me due to it's ease, painlessness, and quickness. You can also find some tips here: http://www.hendonpub.com/law_and_order/articles/2014/07/chemical_detergent_suicide
As to why I have chosen to CTB, and especially for the urgency in doing it very quickly, I prefer to keep those reasons private, but just know it's not necessarily because I am depressed or have other disorders, although I did have a severe disorder a year ago, which is still lingering, and slightly influences the choice to do this, but isn't the biggest reason I have chosen to do this. Either way, it'll be fantastic to be finally free this world, all of it's BS, and this disorder.
I've enjoyed the stay here, and it is a very kind, caring, respectful, gentle, and perhaps best of all active place where you can seek help of any kind and you'll receive it. I'd definitely recommend it to others who want to CTB, none of who I know IRL. As a whole I would hate to see this community die, although I do know a lot of people who come here ain't gonna last or be here very long, like I. With sites like these there is always the risk of being shut down, and although the admins are certain and confident enough to announce there is no way this site can be taken down and they've taken lots of steps so it doesn't happen, you never know, especially with sites like these discussing these things. They did say the Titanic was unsinkable. Guess what happened? Not trying to say it'll happen, and I trust the people who run this site know what they're doing if they have the confidence to say this, so as a whole it'll probably be alive and will for the foreseeable future. Never say never, though.
Over the following few nights keep your eyes peeled for any news talking about a young person who died in Canada due to H2S poisoning and hanging. You see the post, and I ain't talking on here anymore, you know what happened. I ain't the type of guy to hide if I don't get through with this CTB thing.
Alright, well this just about does it. In the event you never see this person post here again, I'll say goodbye right now in advance. If I don't do it tonight, I'll post an update again when I try again for sure.
I wish you all good luck should you choose to be doing this. All this being said..
Peace
Enough blabber talk of the story of how I found this site. I have already posted quite a few comments on here already, and even started to create friendships, but they probably won't last too long. This is the first actual "post" I have created on the site, and possibly the last, if tonight's the night. It's too bad I couldn't stay here longer, because this is a very kind, respectful, pro choice community, which is a great place to hang out nonetheless besides the CTB talk, but I knew when I created an account on this site I didn't have a lot of time to discuss tips and tricks, let alone hang out. I needed to get out of here within a week, two weeks tops. I already feel a connection with a few people on this site, which I know isn't a good thing as these people will probably be a touch bummed when I'm gone, and I probably won't ever see you guys again.
Alas, my time here is just about up. I have chosen the way out of here I think is best, and I'm carrying it out as soon as I feel I can do it safely and without being caught. As for when, it's probably gonna either be tonight or tomorrow night. If I don't do it by then, any of the two following nights will do. Sunday night is a LAST RESORT if I don't do it by then, and if I don't by Sunday night I'm disowning myself. For any of you who want to know how I'm gonna be CTB, it will be a combination of creating hydrogen sulfide gas from household products, which pretty much kills you as easily as CO but can be created easier at the trade off of smelling a little worse, which should take me out right away provided I create enough of it. As a back up I've got partial suspension while I create the H2S in the event it somehow doesn't kill me on its own. There's no way it won't at least knock me out, and if I lose consciousness but don't die right away, the noose will do the rest for me.
No way this can go wrong, provided I get at least half an hour of alone time, tops. The H2S should kill me right away, but the partial suspension is just a backup in the event it only knocks me out.
If you'd like to know more about how to die by H2S, hit up @Death_From_Above. They have some good info on how to do this, and is the person who recommended me due to it's ease, painlessness, and quickness. You can also find some tips here: http://www.hendonpub.com/law_and_order/articles/2014/07/chemical_detergent_suicide
As to why I have chosen to CTB, and especially for the urgency in doing it very quickly, I prefer to keep those reasons private, but just know it's not necessarily because I am depressed or have other disorders, although I did have a severe disorder a year ago, which is still lingering, and slightly influences the choice to do this, but isn't the biggest reason I have chosen to do this. Either way, it'll be fantastic to be finally free this world, all of it's BS, and this disorder.
I've enjoyed the stay here, and it is a very kind, caring, respectful, gentle, and perhaps best of all active place where you can seek help of any kind and you'll receive it. I'd definitely recommend it to others who want to CTB, none of who I know IRL. As a whole I would hate to see this community die, although I do know a lot of people who come here ain't gonna last or be here very long, like I. With sites like these there is always the risk of being shut down, and although the admins are certain and confident enough to announce there is no way this site can be taken down and they've taken lots of steps so it doesn't happen, you never know, especially with sites like these discussing these things. They did say the Titanic was unsinkable. Guess what happened? Not trying to say it'll happen, and I trust the people who run this site know what they're doing if they have the confidence to say this, so as a whole it'll probably be alive and will for the foreseeable future. Never say never, though.
Over the following few nights keep your eyes peeled for any news talking about a young person who died in Canada due to H2S poisoning and hanging. You see the post, and I ain't talking on here anymore, you know what happened. I ain't the type of guy to hide if I don't get through with this CTB thing.
Alright, well this just about does it. In the event you never see this person post here again, I'll say goodbye right now in advance. If I don't do it tonight, I'll post an update again when I try again for sure.
I wish you all good luck should you choose to be doing this. All this being said..
Peace