Venting Almost ctb but I chickened out

[freakypossum]

My ex came to pick up rest of her stuff today. After she left I got into a breakdown, tied a knot but couldnt make myself go through with it. I was standing with it over my neck for good 20 minutes, eventually texted a friend who somehow calmed me down a bit. Took my meds, I'm calmer and here.

 

[Mukuro Ikusaba]

Do not worry, for there will be a day soon. I often try to stab myself with a knife, but I just can't seem to do it...

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

It's not worth it to cbt over a relationship that has ended. It feels like your life is over but that is a lie your heart is telling you. I was once in your shoes but I'm 55 years old now with 2 marriages behind me and a few long term relationships.
What have I learned?. There is always someone else to love.