All the repetitiveness makes me want to die more

[guinea-pig]

My breaking point today was a chicken sandwich. I can't handle the same foods all the time, it is just a cycle. And that's all life is, cycles and repetitiveness. It's terrible and I don't want to participate. I'll never get to a point in life where I can just do whatever, whenever. I'll be stuck in cycles.

 

[lavender143once]

I know the same feeling. It's like how when you work, it's the same shit different day.

 

[Lost Magic]

The movie groundhog day springs to mind. I know what you mean. Do you have any interests in hobbies and interests as distractions to get you through the days. Mines are gaming, listening to music, treating myself now and again to new toys and gadgets, etc... You could also try new foods instead of the chicken sandwiches. I know life is a drag, but there are some things that can help us get through it, while we are still here.

 

[Disappointered]

eventually all the distractions are used up and new ones seem derivative...

 

[Lost Magic]

eventually all the distractions are used up and new ones seem derivative...

Hedonic treadmill

 

[lamentos]

And at some point you lose the track of time, everything becomes dull and colorless which results in you feeling literally nothing. It reminds me of a well-known quote:

Sometimes I let matches burn down to my fingertips just to feel something -- anything.

 

[guinea-pig]

The movie groundhog day springs to mind. I know what you mean. Do you have any interests in hobbies and interests as distractions to get you through the days. Mines are gaming, listening to music, treating myself now and again to new toys and gadgets, etc... You could also try new foods instead of the chicken sandwiches. I know life is a drag, but there are some things that can help us get through it, while we are still here.

I like to crochet but that gets tiring too. I just get bored and tired of everything. And food I have no choice over because it is hard for me to leave the house, even my room to be honest, so my mom buys all the food and I don't want to be a dick saying she is buying the wrong food because I know she has a lot on her plate. I just have to deal with this bored and repetitive feeling for a bit I guess.

 

[Lost Magic]

I like to crochet but that gets tiring too. I just get bored and tired of everything. And food I have no choice over because it is hard for me to leave the house, even my room to be honest, so my mom buys all the food and I don't want to be a dick saying she is buying the wrong food because I know she has a lot on her plate. I just have to deal with this bored and repetitive feeling for a bit I guess.

Are you able to order the occasional delivery meal? I don't know where you are but I use JustEat. There are others like grubhub, deliveroo etc... But at the core of what you are saying, I totally get it.

 

[guinea-pig]

Are you able to order the occasional delivery meal? I don't know where you are but I use JustEat. There are others like grubhub, deliveroo etc... But at the core of what you are saying, I totally get it.

Yeah, I just do it when it's a really bad day lmaoo it makes me feel better though because it's something different

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I just do it when it's a really bad day lmaoo it makes me feel better though because it's something different

I'm the same that way, I only get a delivery when I am fed up, and want someone to cook my meals (and deliver them). I still love my air fryer though haha

 

[eashanm]

I have a food timetable coming consisting of different food daily. So, I eat different foods during the day and week and repeat only after the week.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable why this would make you want to ctb even more, I see my existence as just being a futile process of waiting around to die, existence is so tedious, futile and torturous to me, I see it as being so burdensome having the ability to be conscious and aware where we are trapped with our own thoughts. I've personally never wished to exist or been able to understand how existence is supposedly appealing, only nothingness appeals to me, I'm also tired of it all.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Life is monotony.

 

[Angel of Justice]

My breaking point today was a chicken sandwich. I can't handle the same foods all the time, it is just a cycle. And that's all life is, cycles and repetitiveness. It's terrible and I don't want to participate. I'll never get to a point in life where I can just do whatever, whenever. I'll be stuck in cycles.

sorry but can you explain why you eat the same food all the time? please elaborate, if youre comfortable wtith that..Im just trying to understand.