Venting All over again. This isn't fair.

[First loss]

I finally start moving forward in life and improving. I start enjoying life. I meet a girl and fall in love and she loves me back. Things couldn't be better. Then, it starts all over again. Same fucking thing. Same fucking pain. I wish I had access to cyanide or something to kill me instantly. I can't do this anymore. Fuck life.

 

[jgm63]

Perhaps you could try becoming more spiritual, so you can depend on yourself more and not be so easily influenced by external circumstances.

I suggest watching videos of spiritual teacher, Barry Long
You could make a start with :

Spoiler: HOW TO STOP THINKING

Spoiler: Start Meditating NOW

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

What happened? What triggered it?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I finally start moving forward in life and improving. I start enjoying life. I meet a girl and fall in love and she loves me back. Things couldn't be better. Then, it starts all over again. Same fucking thing. Same fucking pain. I wish I had access to cyanide or something to kill me instantly. I can't do this anymore. Fuck life.

Depression is a gift you didn't ask for, but it just keeps giving. I know when things get better for me I experience the dopamine highs. But then I crash right back down again. I think the highs can definitely trigger the lows. It's a constant struggle, I hope you're able to find a balance between the two.

 

[Jean4]

What is causing the pain? Maybe we can help.

 

[WilliamKline]

Perhaps you could try becoming more spiritual, so you can depend on yourself more and not be so easily influenced by external circumstances.

I suggest watching videos of spiritual teacher, Barry Long
You could make a start with :

Spoiler: HOW TO STOP THINKING

Spoiler: Start Meditating NOW

Thanks for this, didn't know him, it's great stuff

 

[Willdieby30]

fuck my life and fuck my parents for birthing me out of their stupid rotten vapid genitals

What is causing the pain? Maybe we can help.

there is no helping romance.

 

[jgm63]

Thanks for this, didn't know him, it's great stuff

Barry is probably the greatest spiritual teacher that ever lived.

 

[First loss]

What happened? What triggered it?

Same problems with family and academics. Just harder.

 

[Taki]

Depression is a gift you didn't ask for, but it just keeps giving. I know when things get better for me I experience the dopamine highs. But then I crash right back down again. I think the highs can definitely trigger the lows. It's a constant struggle, I hope you're able to find a balance between the two.

Take it from me (late 40s), after enough depression even the highs go away. I generally feel nothing in response to positive events.

 

[ArtVandelay]

Perhaps you could try becoming more spiritual, so you can depend on yourself more and not be so easily influenced by external circumstances.

I suggest watching videos of spiritual teacher, Barry Long
You could make a start with :

Spoiler: HOW TO STOP THINKING

Spoiler: Start Meditating NOW

Wow...thanks a lot for recommending Barry. I've been listening to "How to Stop Thinking" on repeat for the past couple days. It's really been helping me to be productive and to not dwell on the past. I think this guy might actually be able to help me turn my life around, no joke. Definitely going to listen to his other stuff soon.

 

[jgm63]

Wow...thanks a lot for recommending Barry. I've been listening to "How to Stop Thinking" on repeat for the past couple days. It's really been helping me to be productive and to not dwell on the past. I think this guy might actually be able to help me turn my life around, no joke. Definitely going to listen to his other stuff soon.

Barry's teaching certainly has the potential to be life changing. I'm glad you're connecting with it.
It has the potential to reach, awaken, and energise, a deeper part of you.
The only thing you have to look out for is that eventually you have to learn to hold the state yourself.
Plus life will test you, and you have to be able to be true to your new knowledge, so it's not a free ride, and not for the faint hearted....

 

[MeltingHeart]

Perhaps you could try becoming more spiritual, so you can depend on yourself more and not be so easily influenced by external circumstances.

I suggest watching videos of spiritual teacher, Barry Long
You could make a start with :

Spoiler: HOW TO STOP THINKING

Spoiler: Start Meditating NOW

ha-u luv this dude! ;)

 

[jgm63]

ha-u luv this dude! ;)

yes, I do. I went to his seminars in Australia several times (before he passed in 2003).
Possibly the greatest spiritual teacher of all time, in my view.