Stupid_Anon_Offline
Biggest Worst Loser
- May 5, 2024
- 28
I used to have a pretty solid friend group, hey all have completely cut ties with me and hate my guts because they consider me a horrible narcissist, and I just dont get it. I've done EXTENSIVE research into NPD and I just don't see it. They said I don't have empathy, which just wasn't true. I have *selective* empathy. I'm empathetic when it will help me and unless someone is Mt favorite person, don't feel sorry or apologize unless it will help me, WHICH IS PRETTY DAMN NORMAL. Just because I enjoy hurting other people's feelings because it's the only thing that actually makes me feel like I'm worth anything half the time, doesn't mean I'm a narcissist! I have a problem where I really hate myself for a day or two and then just completely convince myself that I'm this God like figure who must be respected. I feel sooooo amazing just because I'm super powerful and awesome, convinced that everyone must love me, but then I also have these few off days where I will be so hyper but also feel so horrible at the same time. I'll start shit for no reason and remind everyone how shitty I am but that they must love me and respect me even though I'll do nothing good for them. BUT I DONT CARE! I just want to feel happy, and all that makes me feel happy is lying to everyone and making everyone feel shit for my own gain. GOD I HATE BEING LABELED A NARCISSIST FOR JUST BEING HUMAN!
edit: God damn it why is it every time I try to bring this up every people just side with the assholes who were name calling me. btw this isn't trolling, this is just me.
edit: God damn it why is it every time I try to bring this up every people just side with the assholes who were name calling me. btw this isn't trolling, this is just me.
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