All I've ever wanted was to be loved, and it really seems like I was cursed to never be able to have that.

[Lusus_naturae]

I just want to be loved, I just want to share my life with someone, I want somebody to hold me at night, somebody to kiss and make breakfast for when I get up, someone to cuddle with and love on all throughout the day.

But I'll never get to have any of that. I've never known any kind of love not even from my fucking family. None of the like me. I don't have any friends either. Despite me trying so much.

I'm tired, I'm touch starved, I'm sad, I'm lonely, I'm angry, every negative thing you can feel I struggle with. I can't take it anymore. I hope if there is such a thing as a next life or afterlife it's kinder than this one.

 

[loser098]

Sorry, OP

Why do you think you're not receiving any of these things?

 

[nozomu]

Even when you appear to have these things at surface value, sometimes they are not what they seem.

 

[user56765567]

It suck that you are going through this as well as I feel the same way. I hope the afterlife provides what were looking for and needed from others as I don't think I'll ever get to experience any of those positive things either. I feel the same way with no friends and a family that is to toxic to express and reciprocate any kind of love with. I think one of the most hardest things to deal with was watching my mother and father become complete strangers to me and lose my love and affection for them as time went on. Personally, those negative emotions and feelings make me feel overwhelmed like I'm drowning or going insane and the overall torment of such feelings and emotions are also a contributing factor as to why I will leave someday as well as it has taken a huge toll on me and has continue to do so like I'm a punching back getting beat up and worn down. LIke everyone else in this forum you deserve better. Thank you for sharing.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Personally I've found a puppy dog more loving than any human being. They will love you unconditionally and be grateful for what you do for them, unlike any man I've ever known.

 

[DeadEndRoad]

Im sorry this has happened to you. I've gone through nearly the same thing. I've never been in any kind of relationship. Anything even remotely close I've probably ruined with my own issues without ever realizing it. I think ive pretty much given up on trying to find someone to spend my life with. It makes sense that people will usually go for the better option, but I don't think I'll ever be that better option. For anybody. It sucks, because when you're a kid you have this vision of what your life will be like, but then you realize it's gonna be a lot darker, and a lot colder than you thought. And everything you thought you had to look forward to was never there.

 

[Ε. Η. R.]

I understand what you're saying. I saw very little love from my "mother" and "father". harm - a lot. I lived completely alone for years (~11), but I was happy. Then I met a monster in the guise of a "caring girl" who ruined my life.
Believe me, betrayal of a loved one, betrayal of those who were very dear - much more painful than loneliness.

Love yourself, live for yourself. Take a cat from the street. You can help cat shelters.

 

[Yuna is My Waifu]

36yo virgin reporting in. It's cruel how bad the hand we got dealt is.

 

[Abandoned Character]

I gave up on pursuing those sorts of things from a romantic other. Instead, I focused on hugging my friends, and being more physical in other ways. I find that, especially as men, there are holes that we feel we can only fill with a romantic other, but there may be other ways if we dare look beyond that. May you find peace~~

 

[sleepy10]

I feel the same way there was a time when i felt like i was working for this but it was all ripped away from me. All i wanted to be was a great wife and a great mother and that will never happen for me.

 

[8daysperweek]

Love has a price. What do you think love is? Do you show loving acts towards others?
Peace

 

[IWishToDie]

I just want to be loved, I just want to share my life with someone, I want somebody to hold me at night, somebody to kiss and make breakfast for when I get up, someone to cuddle with and love on all throughout the day.

But I'll never get to have any of that. I've never known any kind of love not even from my fucking family. None of the like me. I don't have any friends either. Despite me trying so much.

I'm tired, I'm touch starved, I'm sad, I'm lonely, I'm angry, every negative thing you can feel I struggle with. I can't take it anymore. I hope if there is such a thing as a next life or afterlife it's kinder than this one.

If this is your ONLY problem, hang in there. I felt the same until I improved my body my job and moved across town. Took me years to get all that then find a love interest. I've lost all that now, things changed -- but for half a year I had all of that and despite the loss and the pain, it was worth it. If I get better, if I survive, then just maybe I will have that love again someday. Love yourself first then you will attract love into your life OP. Best of luck to you.