Help All issues in one

[loloismissin]

So I have pose around 3 time to this place and becuase I haven't put it all in the same thing I'm getting different answers the conflict. So here is what I need help with in a whole.

I suffer with depression not the worst though so I haven't gotten proper help but I've tried everything. My parents have cameras in every room (yes I live with my parents i am graduating this year bc I failed 8th grade) and yes these cameras are also in the bathroom. my closet isn't big enough to hide anything.

I have a big fear of hanging and I don't want to become paralyzed or anything. I need a method that is quick and easy to get in a small town bc rn my car is bust. So I need the best method. Yes Ik that this seems needy but that's why I'm in this place anyways.

This next part is a little more on my situation but also some vent so nothing important.

I don't have the worst relationship with my parents. My father has anger issues that I have inherited though which is annoying. My mother has something wrong with her but I can't tell though. I love my parents and that's one of the reasons I'm doing it. I feel like I will be a failure in my parents eyes forever. Also I feel like I can't ever be myself mostly because I have only online friends.

I'm down to answer any question if you have any (srry this isn't the best writing I'm sick and tired tbh)

 

[avaruus]

Sorry to ask, but why are there cameras everywhere?

 

[loloismissin]

Sorry to ask, but why are there cameras everywhere?

Srry I didn't get to this quicker but I rlly have no idea my parents say it's for the dogs though. We have 2 big dogs who eat a lot of random shit

 

[avaruus]

Srry I didn't get to this quicker but I rlly have no idea my parents say it's for the dogs though. We have 2 big dogs who eat a lot of random shit

Are they like cctv type cameras? Do your parents constantly check their recordings?

 

[loloismissin]

Are they like cctv type cameras? Do your parents constantly check their recordings?

Check 'em all the time that how they know if a haven't let out the dogs or I'm not doing home works. I have no clue what type of cameras they are. they are super hidden.

 

[avaruus]

Check 'em all the time that how they know if a haven't let out the dogs or I'm not doing home works. I have no clue what type of cameras they are. they are super hidden.

Damn, the lack of privacy would eat me alive.
I hope you manage to find some suitable method. Hanging is very reliable and probaby the least painful out of any quick, low-budget methods, but it's quite scary indeed.

 

[loloismissin]

Damn, the lack of privacy would eat me alive.
I hope you manage to find some suitable method. Hanging is very reliable and probaby the least painful out of any quick, low-budget methods, but it's quite scary indeed.

Thanks man

 

[DeathSleep]

You said it's a small town. Is there a secluded body of water anywhere. Drowning might be an option.

 

[loloismissin]

You said it's a small town. Is there a secluded body of water anywhere. Drowning might be an option.

Yea I live near the ocean that actually might be a good idea

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Don't know what country you live in, but in most it would be completely illegal to have cameras in a bathroom.

 

[matter_of_time]

It seems like your parents care a lot about you. If it didn't happen yet, give them a chance to do everything they can, all the resources. You are so young, I know it sucks to hear that, I tried to end myself when I was your age and I know how bad it gets.m. But things change a lot. In five years, your life will be so different you won't believe it. Time will pass anyway and time will change things a l o t. I'm not throwing bullshit to say "time will heal it", sometimes it doesn't! But time is the best medicine, don't let go without trying it.
I hope I didn't sound mean or arrogant, it wasn't my intention… Take care

 

[FuneralCry]

There is a suicide resource compilation section on here with information about methods, I hope that you find what you search for, best wishes. I wish that it's more straightforward to finally be free from this existence, a suicide attempt going wrong is also what I would fear, it's cruel how suicide is purposely made so difficult.