nopurposeinanything
lulu
- Jan 3, 2026
- 45
This is all I've been feeling recently. I cant even have a moment of liking my friends before I start hating them the next second, loathing, even. I dont know why. Same thing for my parents. One second I'll be fine with them and then the next all I feel is irritation and hatred towards them. I hate everyone. I hate myself. Everything in existence I fucking hate. I dont know about my diagnosis anymore, I dont know about my depression, I dont know about my mental health—I just dont fucking know. It's just a bunch of jumbo bullshit in my head. All I've been feeling recently is hate, anger, and sadness. I'll have a few moments of happiness before it quickly turns to one of those again. I make it seem like im getting better to my parents and my therapist, but its really the opposite. Honestly, its not even sadness that much anymore, its just anger. Nothing else really, just hatred. I know this is a symptom of depression blah blah blah—but is that really all it is?