47a920
Member
- Jan 20, 2026
- 8
i don't even remember when this started. i do remember that i just stopped fearing death sometime when i was in my really early teens, that probably sounds like an overreaction in hindsight, but it's unfortunately true
all i've been able to think about for years is dying and it's been continuously affecting a lot of things in my life, e.g, some nights i can barely go to sleep because an image of myself dying after i finally successfully attempt will replay over and over again until i'm holding back tears in bed
some days it's more extreme like as of recent i even began having nightmares about killing myself too and, after any more life problems i may have, of course it gets very very tough to deal with lol
at most this is really just an inconvienence since i don't care if i die and would have already done it if i had the option
But i just want to know if anyone else is in a similar situation or has been before i just don't want to feel like i'm alone in this shit for my own peace of mind
all i've been able to think about for years is dying and it's been continuously affecting a lot of things in my life, e.g, some nights i can barely go to sleep because an image of myself dying after i finally successfully attempt will replay over and over again until i'm holding back tears in bed
some days it's more extreme like as of recent i even began having nightmares about killing myself too and, after any more life problems i may have, of course it gets very very tough to deal with lol
at most this is really just an inconvienence since i don't care if i die and would have already done it if i had the option
But i just want to know if anyone else is in a similar situation or has been before i just don't want to feel like i'm alone in this shit for my own peace of mind
