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-autisticSunflower
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- Oct 17, 2022
- 16
Ok please I know I need to move out I am autistic and without my mum I have no help and do seriously struggle to do stuff like cooking cleaning etc. so my mum when she gets drunk starts acting like an asshole clown. She got in my face and I pushed her away she then dramatically put herself to the floor and into a ball and then pretended she was dead. She would not respond to me verbally and then when I flat slapped her face lightly and pinched her earlobe she basically jumped up and accused me of punching her three times. Now I've to get out the house in 2 days. Oh but that changed to 5 days. I am actually paying her monthly bills for which she continuously refuses a need for me to increase. She is doing this out of power and I'm fucking done with her. Everything is about her. She refuses to get any help for her behaviour and I just need some comforting words that someone believes me because she has always been an absolute bitch to me but then acts all nicey nicey in front of the family and strangers. She falls short when she is drunk though. I was abused when I was a teenager by both her and my dad because they were/are (my dad is dead now) alcoholics and aggressive and I had mental health issues and autism and I used to be barricaded in my room and was throttled on the floor and my dad kicking me out. I didn't drink, do drugs etc but was bullied at school relentlessly and therefore my parents couldn't handle me being more than sad. My mum started shagging this man from her work a few months after my dad died and I wasn't allowed to come home until 10pm because that was when he'd be gone. She always accuses me of hating her and until now I've denied it because I've felt sorry for her while being angry. Now I've just told her I hate her. She refuses to care about anyone but herself. Like I said she acts like the kindest person but it is completely superficial and I just wish I had a mum that loved me. I just wish I have someone that loved me but I'm always going to be better off dead.