Method Alcohol (for SI) & partial

[MeltingHeart]

Anyone else try & use alcohol pre-partial attempt- you often read that when people have hung or similar they have alcohol in their system- I have tried to use it for nerves/ SI etc, but then weirdly when I start to feel tipsy/ drunk- it sort of in my head partly reminds me of good times, liked the old me-going out with friends, having drinks in pubs, going out and having fun etc, and that makes me sad & confused to feel that old (happyish part of me still hidden deep inside) or I start to feel too drunk then can't think straight or need a wee or get booze hunger etc - but I still fear I wont be able to do it totally straight and sober- I guess its a matter of balance-like not have too much but just a few, does anyone else encounter similar? ( here I go over thinking and building up to 'it' too much again!)

 

[WhiteDespair]

They rarely say how much alcohol. Could be a drink, a few or enough to pass out.

 

[MeltingHeart]

They rarely say how much alcohol. Could be a drink, a few or enough to pass out.

Yeah that's what I want - but obviously don't want to pass out sort of half way if u know what what I mean - wish I lived alone so could do it at home. Hard finding the right spot outside