Ahhh fuck i probably got 5-0 knocking on my door soon.

[Ben]

i just had a big blowout with my dad via email. It's the only way we ever communicated efficiently. I've been drinking so unfortunately I actually shared how I actually feel with my family.

Biiiig mistake. I was way to honest with him. I should of just stuck to the regular cookie cutter shit I feed him when he decides to check on me... He told me he is taking measures out of his hands, and I can only assume he called the cops.

I have a sliver tounge, so im not THAT worried. Beisdes, I'm an adult, daddy can't send me to a ward anymore....I think......

I fucking hate police so I'm sure once they get here, my inner drunk prick will surface, and give them a reason to at least throw me in the tank for tonight. And that ain't even bad, I'll get a ham sandwich with an orange, see a couple buddies, then be released tomorrow morning. I dont think I have any warrrents, but I can't say for sure. If I do, I'll just bail myself out with the remainder of my "have fun before your go" funds.

It's weird advice...but uh, if I were to lay words of wisdom for other users it would be...don't trust your parents? Fml

 

[Ben]

Yup they are on the way. Yay drunk tank. I feel sorry for any motherfucker who has to deal with me all night.

 

[Clover]

Your allowed to drink in your own home? They can't lock you up for that! Just talk calmly.

 

[Ben]

Your allowed to drink in your own home? They can't lock you up for that! Just talk calmly.

I might be able to talk my way out of it but constable ranata called my cell and asked if I'm ok, and where I'm located. That tells me me day told me I'm a risk or something. It would just be the drunk tank, I've done that countless times.

The only thing that pisses me off is my dad thinks he's helping me, he will sleep well tonight knowing h "saved" me. Fucker

 

[Lion]

wow update us on what goes on if you can

just reinforces my feelings on keeping it all to myself until the end

 

[bigj75]

Yes do not trust parents with this. I made that mistake.

 

[MEoDP]

Makes me glad I'm not really into alcohol,I'm into weed. and thankfully,weed doesn't make me talk about stuff like that. I usually just daydream about stupid shit and laugh uncontrollably. Strangely though,of the few times I have gotten drunk,I've never made this mistake. (then again,maybe I wasn't drunk enough or I wasn't put in a situation for it to trigger such moments)

For the drinkers here,my only real advice would be avoid talking to talking to parents or other people in your place(UNLESS they are of the rare few who completely understand the suicidal). If you need to have an intimate conversation,do it anonymously via the internet. Maybe the SS discord group will be your cup of tea.

 

[MEoDP]

Do your best not to lose your cool with the cops however. I know its tempting to disrespect or even to give them a piece of your mind,but you don't want your situation worsening.

 

[MissLisa]

Say you were drunk and said it in the heat of the moment. Say you don't want to die and it was just a family argument. I learned you should never trust anyone but I know what you mean by it comes out. Good luck

 

[Lion]

wonder how effective it would be to pretend to have a weapon when the cops arrive. as long as you dont mind your father thinking it was his fault.

 

[MEoDP]

wonder how effective it would be to pretend to have a weapon when the cops arrive. as long as you dont mind your father thinking it was his fault.

I really wouldn't recommend this idea,no matter how tempting. Messing with the cops is a recipe to make your life harder than it has to be.

 

[Ben]

wow update us on what goes on if you can

just reinforces my feelings on keeping it all to myself until the end

Two chick cops knocked on my door. They said they received a call that makes them worried for my life. I probably could of talked my way out of it but I was in such a shit mood last night..I think I remember telling the cop to leave me alone like everyone else. They suggested I come with them to get looked at (which means drunk tank in cop talk) and I just went with them without fighting. Got booked, passed out, woke up at 7am this morning with a sandwich. Got released at 9am and had to bus back home.

I'm literally not taking to my family anymore, just causes a headache every time.

 

[Ben]

wonder how effective it would be to pretend to have a weapon when the cops arrive. as long as you dont mind your father thinking it was his fault.

I probably would of been shot lol I don't want a cop to kill me. I want to do it by my books, not anybody else's.

 

[Ben]

Say you were drunk and said it in the heat of the moment. Say you don't want to die and it was just a family argument. I learned you should never trust anyone but I know what you mean by it comes out. Good luck

Thanks, I knew what I needed to say but I didn't. I just went with them cuz fuck it. It's all done and over with now, and the result is just a even bigger sever in the relationship with my dad

 

[Ben]

Do your best not to lose your cool with the cops however. I know its tempting to disrespect or even to give them a piece of your mind,but you don't want your situation worsening.

Yea I kept my cool but it must of been obvious I was disturbed. I just went with them, everything went smooth and exactly how I thought it would. No more chats with dad fuck that lol

 

[MEoDP]

Yea I kept my cool but it must of been obvious I was disturbed. I just went with them, everything went smooth and exactly how I thought it would. No more chats with dad fuck that lol

Glad to hear that everything went relatively smoothly. It does indeed suck to know that you can't trust the people who are supposed to love you. Its why I so often say that parenthood is not for everyone,too many people out there who have absolutely no fucking business being parents take up the mantle,and it leads to so much suffering and fucked up situations in the world we live in today.

I better go,gonna sleep soon. good night man.

 

[Ben]

Glad to hear that everything went relatively smoothly. It does indeed suck to know that you can't trust the people who are supposed to love you. Its why I so often say that parenthood is not for everyone,too many people out there who have absolutely no fucking business being parents take up the mantle,and it leads to so much suffering and fucked up situations in the world we live in today.

I better go,gonna sleep soon. good night man.

Thanks. As pissed off as I am at my dad, I would be lying if I didn't understand where he is coming from. I know IM the fucked up one, he's just reacting the only way he knows how...even though it's failing miserably and it's been too late to help me for years.

Goodnight friend

 

[MEoDP]

Thanks. As pissed off as I am at my dad, I would be lying if I didn't understand where he is coming from. I know IM the fucked up one, he's just reacting the only way he knows how...even though it's failing miserably and it's been too late to help me for years.

Goodnight friend

That's why I say Procreation is essentially gambling with another person's life. Unless genetic engineering becomes a reality(which it won't anytime soon),you have no idea how the birth is going to turn out. Even a beautiful,healthy and intelligent couple could give birth to an ugly,disease-ridden and retarded offspring. (and that's not account for so many things that could happen to someone completely outside your control. the only way to 100% guarantee that someone never suffers is to avoid procreation and forcing them into existence.)

Look up Antinatalism,maybe it'll be up right your alley.

Alright,I really must go to sleep now. just made a last-minute log in. As ta lavista baby

 

[Ben]

That's why I say Procreation is essentially gambling with another person's life. Unless genetic engineering becomes a reality(which it won't anytime soon),you have no idea how the birth is going to turn out. Even a beautiful,healthy and intelligent couple could give birth to an ugly,disease-ridden and retarded offspring. (and that's not account for so many things that could happen to someone completely outside your control. the only way to 100% guarantee that someone never suffers is to avoid procreation and forcing them into existence.)

Look up Antinatalism,maybe it'll be up right your alley.

Alright,I really must go to sleep now. just made a last-minute log in. As ta lavista baby

I'll look into it thanks

 

[TAW122]

I'm glad that things worked out with the authorities and no further consequences with them. However, I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your dad and I believe cutting off contact with him forever might be a good solution.

 

[Ben]

I'm glad that things worked out with the authorities and no further consequences with them. However, I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your dad and I believe cutting off contact with him forever might be a good solution.

Thank you. Yea next time I need to go on a drunk rant, I'll do it here lol. I should of cut them off awhile go, all I do is give them one shitty memory of me after the next

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Makes me glad I'm not really into alcohol,I'm into weed. and thankfully,weed doesn't make me talk about stuff like that. I usually just daydream about stupid shit and laugh uncontrollably. Strangely though,of the few times I have gotten drunk,I've never made this mistake. (then again,maybe I wasn't drunk enough or I wasn't put in a situation for it to trigger such moments)

For the drinkers here,my only real advice would be avoid talking to talking to parents or other people in your place(UNLESS they are of the rare few who completely understand the suicidal). If you need to have an intimate conversation,do it anonymously via the internet. Maybe the SS discord group will be your cup of tea.

when I drink I cant stop talking, about everthing!! and if i do around others they are like OMG i dont want to know that much about it.

 

[Ben]

I'll probably be in county soon too. Man, sounds like you're way better prepared for it than me. Fucking terrified but I'm a piece of shit borderline aspie so will probably get killed on the inside.

I can't be honest with anyone either. Only person I speak to regularly is my mom and she's really into "thinking positively". She's probably right but it's just not me.

Good luck getting out of lock up.

I've spent a total of 2 years in jail. 24 months. That sounds like a easy sentence to anybody who has never been locked up before.

I don't know if anybody else here has done time...but I have...and when a white t-shirt is your only option to KTB? Yea, you'll start to realize that the main factor in suicide failures is the lack of seriousness.

Hanging can be painful as fuck, but that's you're only opinion in the pen.

While I will never judge somebody on their failed attempts...it's not rocket science to
Kill yourself...trying to make it a less
Traumatic experience is where alll the doubt comes from.

 

[MEoDP]

I've spent a total of 2 years in jail. 24 months. That sounds like a easy sentence to anybody who has never been locked up before.

I don't know if anybody else here has done time...but I have...and when a white t-shirt is your only option to KTB? Yea, you'll start to realize that the main factor in suicide failures is the lack of seriousness.

Hanging can be painful as fuck, but that's you're only opinion in the pen.

While I will never judge somebody on their failed attempts...it's not rocket science to
Kill yourself...trying to make it a less
Traumatic experience is where alll the doubt comes from.

I've thankfully never done time,but I've done some things that certainly could have landed me in jail/prison if I had gotten caught/unlucky. (That's primarily drug consumption and fights with bullies in school however. I've never hurt an innocent person or done anything I couldn't morally live with.)

Yea, you'll start to realize that the main factor in suicide failures is the lack of seriousness.

You're definitely correct. A person desperate and dedicated enough,will take whatever opportunity is available regardless of how scary or painful the method may be. Most of us have thankfully not reached that point. (not yet anyway,and hopefully never)

Remember my last thread where I stated that according to the observations of Rory Miller(a past LEO and now one of the best self-defense instructors there is),people truly and absolutely dedicated to getting the job done will willingly kill anyone that tries to stop them. of course,Rory's observations are limited to people in criminal and violent lifestyles,but that definitely shows dedication.

 

[Ben]

I've thankfully never done time,but I've done some things that certainly could have landed me in jail/prison if I had gotten caught/unlucky. (That's primarily drug consumption and fights with bullies in school however. I've never hurt an innocent person or done anything I couldn't morally live with.)


You're definitely correct. A person desperate and dedicated enough,will take whatever opportunity is available regardless of how scary or painful the method may be. Most of us have thankfully not reached that point. (not yet anyway,and hopefully never)

Remember my last thread where I stated that according to the observations of Rory Miller(a past LEO and now one of the best self-defense instructors there is),people truly and absolutely dedicated to getting the job done will willingly kill anyone that tries to stop them. of course,Rory's observations are limited to people in criminal and violent lifestyles,but that definitely shows dedication.

Yes, the underlying fact that nobody wants to admit here. Is that EVERY SUICDE OPTIONS WORKS. It's just a manner of how much pain and suffering you want to take.

If you want a completely painless and easy method, then do you really have what it takes to continue that effort after it didn't work?

I want my passing to be as peaceful as the next user here....but...hanging yourselves does not require a 13 step method.

Some people are forced to put themselves in a situation where all chances of luxury during their passing are taken from them. I'm not trying to discret anybody's methods...but death is VERY easy to achieve if you cannot face the next day.

It all depends on your tolerance. That's it. You wanna hang yourself? Tie a rope around your neck and throw yourself off a tree. You don't need to practice different techniques for weeks, trying to figure out how to die.

Dying is easy as fuck. Easy suicide? That's another subject...

 

[I'm exhausted]

I can't talk for everyone but as for me, I do want to die because my life is too painful to live but if that pain were taken away then I wouldn't want to die. So it's not that I want to die but rather can not live with this pain and want that pain to die. If that makes sense? Also I secretly wish for a miracle to happen that would make my life better while I look for a way to die.

 

[Joannf]

Shoudn't it rather be, "don't trust yourself" ?

I can't talk for everyone but as for me, I do want to die because my life is too painful to live but if that pain were taken away then I wouldn't want to die. So it's not that I want to die but rather can not live with this pain and want that pain to die. If that makes sense? Also I secretly wish for a miracle to happen that would make my life better while I look for a way to die.

Makes a lot of sense. I would even say it's totally normal ;)

Yes, the underlying fact that nobody wants to admit here. Is that EVERY SUICDE OPTIONS WORKS. It's just a manner of how much pain and suffering you want to take.

If you want a completely painless and easy method, then do you really have what it takes to continue that effort after it didn't work?

I want my passing to be as peaceful as the next user here....but...hanging yourselves does not require a 13 step method.

Some people are forced to put themselves in a situation where all chances of luxury during their passing are taken from them. I'm not trying to discret anybody's methods...but death is VERY easy to achieve if you cannot face the next day.

It all depends on your tolerance. That's it. You wanna hang yourself? Tie a rope around your neck and throw yourself off a tree. You don't need to practice different techniques for weeks, trying to figure out how to die.

Dying is easy as fuck. Easy suicide? That's another subject...

;))

 

[Bazinga]

I was about to give OP some advice before realizing they're probably already dead.