i don't think there's any way of knowing whether hell exists or not. I personally don't believe it, but I can't prove it doesn't exist.
The way I think about it though, is even if what happens after death is even worse than life, then that's going to happen when you die naturally anyway, right?
Or, if you believe that something like hell exists and it only happens to "bad" people, why would suicide be the thing that makes you a "bad" person. I guess that would only be the case if you believe suicide is a sin.
Sorry if this comes across as rambling, I'd love to hear your thoughts
no no i totally get it. i've had years to marinate on this concept, and i think it ultimately boils down to paranoia. Something very like spinning the roullette of fate and being frantically obssessed that there's a tiny little spot in it that leads to eternal doom. "BUT JESUS, THE PROBABILITY!!! IT CAN'T BE RULED OUT!!!" -my anxiety, probably.
Then again i have good reason to be this afraid. my idea of hell is very radical. like demons cutting your skin out with boxcutters and rubbing a handful of thick salt on your bloody muscles, then gauging out your eyes with rusty spoons. Maybe more accurately the mind itself being extended in capability to coomprehend and sustain every single type of pain and horror that can exist, happening constantly, forever. Literally the worst thing my imagination is capable of concieving.
As for morality and an inevitable end, that's the thing to it. If i find myself in this inevitable fate and over everything still feel the sting of "oh god, i could have bought myself more time to exist in a less tortured state, but i cut it short". I don't really feel morality has got anything to do with it, well it
could, but i also subscribe to the possibility that, as i mentioned, god could be a jackass who sends people to torture on a whim. it could be fun for him! he could do it for just no reason! maybe there isn't even a god and suffering is all that is! i don't know and
nobody can confirm or assure me that any final state is true.
Hi cat.
Umm...that's not my concept of God but who cares about that. Surely that sort of God would get bored of 'frying the ants' eventually? Why target you? Sounds like the devil we are talking about here.
I'd say there's a possibility of being reborn into a worse situation. But I wouldn't personally blame God for it. Whatever it takes to get over delusions.
It's a hard one to answer without putting one's own beliefs on it. And what you say about disprove...well, best if you work out your answer.
All I know is: God is. Thus, everything else isn't. What you boil God down to is up to you.
Hi tiger.
Yeah, peharps it goes beyond a concept of god. Maybe i like to pin it on god because religion introduced the to the whole system of afterlife, and that's who i was taught to "fear" in my formative years. But really, it is just fear to worsen my situation in a way that's irreversable.
i do believe i would be far more lax if i wasn't haunted with these concepts so early in life, but, it is what it is. I sometimes find myself trying to calm down and consider the other possibilities that it could be good, or it could be nothing, but then the little demon in my brain says that i'll seal myself into even more horror for trying to escape something that i can't take.
i really wish i could get over it. Peharps it's easier to delve into the risk of other choices in life because they're fixable to some extent but death.. no one's ever come back to tell.
i don't know. i really wish i'd died sooner. the last 7 years of my life were not worth living. Maybe someday it'll get better so i don't have to force myself to take matters into my own hands, or maybe someday i'll cave to the despair. it's a really difficult situation that has no good argument to wrap it up.
