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papulin
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- Nov 5, 2020
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I have two young children. I struggle with feeling guilt towards how my suicide might affect them as they grow up; their relationships with others, and what lesson I am leaving them in how to deal with life's adversities.
I believe suicide in my case is highly rational and defensible. I had a sterling career which was publicly destroyed (needlessly) and has left me with no career prospects. Every day/week/month/year has been a feeling of existential despair for many years now. I just can't get over or past it, I was raised to achieve & w/ that taken away I cannot pivot to something else; I feel a ghost or shell of a person. I don't want to go on anymore.
I know a couple of people whose parents committed suicide, and I know it is a great source of pain for them. How can I keep the same from happening to my girls?
I believe suicide in my case is highly rational and defensible. I had a sterling career which was publicly destroyed (needlessly) and has left me with no career prospects. Every day/week/month/year has been a feeling of existential despair for many years now. I just can't get over or past it, I was raised to achieve & w/ that taken away I cannot pivot to something else; I feel a ghost or shell of a person. I don't want to go on anymore.
I know a couple of people whose parents committed suicide, and I know it is a great source of pain for them. How can I keep the same from happening to my girls?