TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
 
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I feel the same way
 
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Same. People keep telling me that if you find a job that you love you will be happy and also that life is worth living for the little things but I feel myelf too mentally fucked up in order to enjoy anything properly. I do see happy adults though so there must be something they are doing right that we don't. I just couldn't quite figure out what.
 
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I presume if I had a healthy mind then said responsibilities and stress wouldn't be too much for me. My psyche is fucked tho so... yeah I suck at functioning in society
 
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Cutepoison

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Amen. Totally agree. This is shit.
 
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Yup my minds gone too
 
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Is Existence Just A Test?
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Yep for me, the worst part is that you HAVE to HAVE a job to be "allowed" to live! The government and society forces you to work, something you might not even want to! It is super rare to find a job that is enjoyable enough to be happy.
You dont live to work, you work to live.
Don't get me wrong... working can be nice, but other people force you to work when they want, what they want you to work as etc.
 
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It is horrible, the obligations and pressures are even greater. "Go to college", "Have kids", "Get a job", "Work at a stressful job and don't complain", "Smile, or they won't like you", "Have a dental plan", "Have a new TV "," You are too old to live with your parents "," Be grateful, as much as life sucks ".

Fuck them.
 
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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
How old are you?

The life sold to you as an infant is a fallacy and not attainable.

The world has lied to you and you must accept the truth about reality.
 
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_Minsk

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Dec 9, 2019
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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
on top of that you might even get chronic diseases which will ultimately destroy you slowly..
 
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trigzter

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Hell I havent worked in 2 years and it still blows
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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How old are you?

The life sold to you as an infant is a fallacy and not attainable.

The world has lied to you and you must accept the truth about reality.
I just turned 26

And yes I am aware of the reality of adult life but I won´t ever accept it I want to be a blissfull ignorant happy child again; when you have experienced a life at 100% happiness it´s hard to settle for less especially because of all my physical and mental problems which didn´t exist as a child.
on top of that you might even get chronic diseases which will ultimately destroy you slowly..
I have several chronical illnesses that has destroyed my life slowly over the last 6+ years.
Hell I havent worked in 2 years and it still blows
Neither have I. I used to work as a dish washer at a restaurant as a teenager working about 16 hours a week earning good money but when I at 18 got a full time job as an apprentice in a butchers shop I went down with depression after only 1½ month because I realized after the first 1-2 weeks that I would have to work 10 hours a day 5 days a week for the rest of my life doing some boring mundane job and I couldn´t handle that truth.

Now luckily I don´t work at least temporarily because of one of my chronical problems which also was the course for me having to drop out of school and has made me exlude myself from hanging out with friends over the years so I haven´t had any friends for many years.
 
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dkdkdkdkkd

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soo true I just can't wrap my head around this concept that after graduating from school or college you just need to keep on going in this job-home cycle for your whole life with several weeks of vacation a year and the only thing left is to have a family or buy something fancy like property or a car maybe. I know you can do basically everything when you have money and abilities but it just seems so pointless.
 
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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
I completely agree! Being an adult makes me want to die. I have the fact that I'll be forced to work and make my own a living. I want out of the capitalist system, I refuse to partake and become another wageslave. Adulthood isn't even a life, it's only an existence. I hate the thought of having to work 40-60 years just to die. I will ctb as a way to rebel against and escape this system
soo true I just can't wrap my head around this concept that after graduating from school or college you just need to keep on going in this job-home cycle for your whole life with several weeks of vacation a year and the only thing left is to have a family or buy something fancy like property or a car maybe. I know you can do basically everything when you have money and abilities but it just seems so pointless.
Literally! I don't understand this either. It honestly makes no sense to me. I agree, having to work away your life seems so meaningless and pointless. Idk why adulthood is like this. It seems so unfulfilling
 
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Yup, dude. I fell the same. Dont know if my suicide would be because of my bipolar disorder or the fact that i hate adult life in the capitalism.
 
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It is horrible, the obligations and pressures are even greater. "Go to college", "Have kids", "Get a job", "Work at a stressful job and don't complain", "Smile, or they won't like you", "Have a dental plan", "Have a new TV "," You are too old to live with your parents "," Be grateful, as much as life sucks ".

Fuck them.
Ikr! I hate the fact that we're obligated and expected to do these things
Yep for me, the worst part is that you HAVE to HAVE a job to be "allowed" to live! The government and society forces you to work, something you might not even want to! It is super rare to find a job that is enjoyable enough to be happy.
You dont live to work, you work to live.
Don't get me wrong... working can be nice, but other people force you to work when they want, what they want you to work as etc.
I totally agree! I hate the fact that we have to work just to live, and that EXISTENCE COSTS MONEY. No other animal has to pay to exist on this planet, only humans…
 
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I completely agree! Being an adult makes me want to die. I have the fact that I'll be forced to work and make my own a living. I want out of the capitalist system, I refuse to partake and become another wageslave. Adulthood isn't even a life, it's only an existence. I hate the thought of having to work 40-60 years just to die. I will ctb as a way to rebel against and escape this system
Plus all the happiness, fun, excitement and a carefree life full of wonder I felt as a child and teenager has just been switched out with bad physical and mental health, apathy and anhedonia so I don´t feel anything anymore not even sadness I can´t cry and with being forced to work along with all the responsibilities that comes along with being and adult not to mention getting older and uglier looking by every year that is what happiness, fun and excitement and the carefree life full of wonder got switched out with what a trade I fucking hate adulthood it´s just hell on earth!
 
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I'm 37 years old, and all I see forward is nothing but a downward abyss. So I tend to agree with you. 26 is still young where people out there still have fun and most of your friends are still not married with kids and all that crap that happens in my age. But yeah I can understand why you might feel not liking life moving forward at your age as well, you are not reaching a greater peak unless you care about life too much to work hard for it, and even then you need to get also lucky. If I could just leave life, I think I myself would do it by the time I finish high school, I have learning disabilities and if it wasn't for that, I'd say when i leave college. The world of having to work and be married is just burden, not progression.
 
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Plus all the happiness, fun, excitement and a carefree life full of wonder I felt as a child and teenager has just been switched out with bad physical and mental health, apathy and anhedonia so I don´t feel anything anymore not even sadness I can´t cry and with being forced to work along with all the responsibilities that comes along with being and adult not to mention getting older and uglier looking by every year that is what happiness, fun and excitement and the carefree life full of wonder got switched out with what a trade I fucking hate adulthood it´s just hell on earth!
Ikr! Tbh I hate the responsibilities that come with adulthood. I hate that you're expected to be on your own and to make your own living. Honestly I never even wanted to grow up anyways, but still. Being an adult is literally the biggest scam. And I hate the fact that we have to get older every year. I wish I could stay frozen in time, and never get any older.
I'm 37 years old, and all I see forward is nothing but a downward abyss. So I tend to agree with you. 26 is still young where people out there still have fun and most of your friends are still not married with kids and all that crap that happens in my age. But yeah I can understand why you might feel not liking life moving forward at your age as well, you are not reaching a greater peak unless you care about life too much to work hard for it, and even then you need to get also lucky. If I could just leave life, I think I myself would do it by the time I finish high school, I have learning disabilities and if it wasn't for that, I'd say when i leave college. The world of having to work and be married is just burden, not progression.
Yeah, honestly I think that having to work is a burden. I'd rather be dead. Idk how anyone could actually look forward to adulthood and working life. I wish I could've stayed a kid forever and never grown up. Ever since I was young I never did. I honestly never wanted to live past 18, but here I am, trapped on this planet, forced to eventually enter the workforce unless I ctb. I refuse to be another slave to the system! I want out. I hate how these are seen as milestones and achievements by society. These are seen as objectives to strive and work towards. "You will have a job and you will marry and you will have a family." Fuck off, don't tell me what to do or how to live my life. I hate these societal expectations and being expected to do these things.

I can't escape eventually having to get a job though because existence costs money, but I never want to get married or have a family. I just don't see a need for these things (granted I'm aroace but still). I hate the fact that I'm expected to though. I hate that these are norms, and so deeply ingrained into our society.
 
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And I hate the fact that we have to get older every year. I wish I could stay frozen in time, and never get any older.
I really feel this. My dream is after I die I would wake up as a child and live my childhood all over again exactly as it was where it would reset every time I hit puberty continuing in a never ending loop of course without any recollection of it all so it would feel new like the first time forever that is my definition of heaven.

And back then you did really feel frozen in time because it felt like you would never grow up, because I was excited to be an adult that could handle everything and especially driving a car so it felt forever away it´s like as a child 1 year feels more like 5 years (just to put a number on it) but really I couldn´t really comprehend time 1 year or beyond it felt like an eternity and I was never looking so far ahead except wanting to be 18 so I could drive a car, eat junkfood everyday etc. because there was so many exciting and fun things to look forward to every day and every weekend so I was living in the present. But anyways childhood felt like it would last forever and why shouldn´t it as a child we have never experienced other phased like puberty or adulthood so it felt like this was our state forever plus we perceive time differently as children I have that theory or rather I think it´s self-evident that for example if you are 5 then 1 year is 20% of your life so of course 1 year feels like an eternity when it made up so much of your life the same as 10 years old 1 year is still 10% of your life but as you get older 1 year becomes less and less so like me I´m almost 30 years old so of course 1 year of those 30 is nothing so the years just fly by I started noticing this already in my mid teens that time seems to speed up the older we get. So well anyway the point is we were kinda frozen in time back then as children because childhood was a world of it´s own that felt like it would never leave us but it did...
 
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Jan 4, 2020
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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
I agree with you. Life is very hard and does not allow for many good moments, without almost all of them pure suffering
 
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Even if I was physically and mentally healthy I would kill myself because I don´t see how adult life is worth living there are too many responsibilities and you spend the majority on a job you don´t like I don´t see that as living.

Childhood was the happiest carefree time in life and teenage years were an adventure despite depression after you become an adult reality hits hard life isn´t just about having fun, excitement and adventures it´s all about the responsibilities of adult "life" while you watch yourself get older and further away from the happy years.

And to top it all off you don´t even get a break from all of this only 25 days vacation a year and 2 days to recharge in the weekends which isn´t enough in my experience at least in your youth in school there were many vacations scatered around the year, some which lasted 7-14 days just for one vacation.
You don't have to work a 9-5/5 to make ends meet, plenty of people share a house and do 4 days work a week.
 
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Doz

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Aug 15, 2023
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1 million percent agree. And all those things people say that are GOOD about adulthood it's such bullshit you'd think it was some sick joke. There is infinitely more bad than good about being an adult. Nothing makes up for it. Nothing is worth it when you spend 99.9% of the year feeling like complete shit and maybe 4 days or so where you might feel a little better. Fuck all that.
 
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ScubaCTB

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Same. People keep telling me that if you find a job that you love you will be happy and also that life is worth living for the little things but I feel myelf too mentally fucked up in order to enjoy anything properly. I do see happy adults though so there must be something they are doing right that we don't. I just couldn't quite figure out what.

They have family, friends, community, career and a home/house (not a rental). Those are the only things that make human life worth it. I have none of that, and that's why I'm out.
 
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matt1968

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Yes, school and childhood was a lot easier for me too. I think I was institutionalised. I couldn't cope with going to university and cracked. And since then it's just been generally a losing battle.
 
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Yes, school and childhood was a lot easier for me too. I think I was institutionalised. I couldn't cope with going to university and cracked. And since then it's just been generally a losing battle.
Same thing happened to me. I couldn't cope with university and haven't been able to cope with life afterwards. I'm 28 now and firmly convinced it is not worth it.
 
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matt1968

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Same thing happened to me. I couldn't cope with university and haven't been able to cope with life afterwards. I'm 28 now and firmly convinced it is not worth it.
It feels a real blow. I was considered an adult and flown the nest but in reality a young kid not ready to leave home.
 
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ijustwishtodie

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I had a shitty childhood and what scares me is that adulthood is even worse than my shitty childhood. During childhood, I wasn't happy or ignorant
 

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