Actual suicide

[rachybee]

I'm curious. Who actually wants to die. Who wants suicide. If you could press a button and die instantly. Would you?

I have sometimes fleeting thoughts where I'd like to go back to hospital and be 'saved' and be ok.

But mainly I'm suicidal most days. And it's a want not a maybe want

 

[idhayam]

I support suicide being hard to an extent, but I don't support it being impossible. For example, ordering the SN from Ukraine and then using it takes effort and is hard, but when SN is blocked from import it makes the method nearly impossible which I don't support. My reasoning for this is because I don't agree with suicides with impulsive reasoning.

Although I would have pressed that button, I would not support that button being there.

 

[rachybee]

I support suicide being hard to an extent, but I don't support it being impossible. For example, ordering the SN from Ukraine and then using it takes effort and is hard, but when SN is blocked from import it makes the method nearly impossible which I don't support. My reasoning for this is because I don't agree with suicides with impulsive reasoning.

Although I would have pressed that button, I would not support that button being there.

Yea I feel for me? It's a given. It's totally fine. I also have ordered SN. But for other people I want them to be ok

 

[tbh2023]

I'm curious. Who actually wants to die. Who wants suicide. If you could press a button and die instantly. Would you?

I have sometimes fleeting thoughts where I'd like to go back to hospital and be 'saved' and be ok.

But mainly I'm suicidal most days. And it's a want not a maybe want

Being suicidal doesn't necessary means you will kill yourself. Most of the people who died by suicide didn't even have suicidal thoughts prior.

 

[rachybee]

Being suicidal doesn't necessary means you will kill yourself. Most of the people who died by suicide didn't even have suicidal thoughts prior.

Yea I get that. I just have wanted to die for so long I wondered who felt the same

 

[tbh2023]

Yea I get that. I just have wanted to die for so long I wondered who felt the same

I feel the same and felt the same! It's ok to express your feelings. Dying doesn't mean you're going to paradise. We can never know what's on the other end. I want to kms every day but I have to think about my family. I'm not willing to put them through the trauma or put myself if I failed.

 

[kitkat9234]

I want to die every single day. I curse out loud every time I wake up. The only thing that would help is if I had a Time Machine. No such thing so here I am beating myself up for my shitty decisions that brought me to this point. I wish someone would just kill me already. I'm too chicken shit to do anything so here I am trapped. I hate this.

 

[pulse1]

I think if it was instantaneous, I would probably press it before I can think about anything that might make me doubt myself.

However if it was not death per se but me disappearing (from everyone's memories and the universe), I would press it in lightning speed.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

without a doubt I would press it for myself.

but like others have said, impulsive choices ain't it as an overarching thing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally only wish to not exist and it's all I'll ever hope for no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, the thought of suffering enslaved in this existence until old age is so horrific to me, I suffer simply from existing and I find it so painful and dreadful to be burdened with this existence. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's a problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I could never see existence as a desirable state rather it's something I only wish for permanent peace from, I only hope for non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than suffer for the sake of it in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish to permanently erase my existence.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I'd press that button instantly if I had the option to. Accessing an instantaneous death at the palm of my hands would be the best thing ever and I think that everybody deserves to have this option accessible to them from birth

 

[Tommen Baratheon]

I would have pressed that button several times by now.

 

[Bleh61]

I want to die every single day. I curse out loud every time I wake up. The only thing that would help is if I had a Time Machine. No such thing so here I am beating myself up for my shitty decisions that brought me to this point. I wish someone would just kill me already. I'm too chicken shit to do anything so here I am trapped. I hate this.

I'm with you. I suffer from CPTSD. It's chronic psychological trauma, usually occurring in childhood. I wish I had a dollar for every bad decision I've made in my life. The worst decision has to be leaving my shelter Housing Specialist position in 2021. Since then, my life has imploded. I've been out of work and on PA for 9 months, and I owe my landlord over seven thousand dollars. My lease expires in April, and there is an excellent chance I will be homeless by May. I have the means, but lack the balls to kill myself, but, if I'm on the verge of losing my home, all bets are off.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Yes, I would press that button

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I abolutely would commit suicide immediately if I had access to a painless and trustworthy method. Ideally a doctor would oversee the process to make sure everything went right.

 

[justwannadip]

I abolutely would commit suicide immediately if I had access to a painless and trustworthy method. Ideally a doctor would oversee the process to make sure everything went right.

You don't find your nitrogen setup trustworthy?

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I think if it was instantaneous, I would probably press it before I can think about anything that might make me doubt myself.

However if it was not death per se but me disappearing (from everyone's memories and the universe), I would press it in lightning speed.

So you wish to essentially remove your existence? That's unique, and I don't think I've heard of that. I may have though, my brain is quite clowudy right now

 

[leloyon]

I just want a gun.
If I want to go target shooting, I can. If I need to protect myself, I can. And if I want to die, I can with just one trigger pull. I don't know when I'd commit suicide, but having that option there at all times would appeal to me.

 

[human909]

I really want do ctb, if there was a button i would most likely 99% press it.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

You don't find your nitrogen setup trustworthy?

Unfortunately I forgot the regulator and exit bag at the hotel, all I have left is the nitrogen tank. Now I have to decide whether to create another exit bag, switch to SCBA/SCUBA, or find a different method. I would trust a mask more because it's more secure than the flimsy bag.

 

[CogitoMori]

I'm curious. Who actually wants to die. Who wants suicide. If you could press a button and die instantly. Would you?

I have sometimes fleeting thoughts where I'd like to go back to hospital and be 'saved' and be ok.

But mainly I'm suicidal most days. And it's a want not a maybe want

The things that could save me are not realistic things so I think it's better to accept that I won't ever be happy

 

[Namelesa]

If after death is non-existence then I am 100% pressing that button no matter what. I can't care if I wanted to do things with my life if I don't exist and can't feel anything.

 

[atrophy]

If the button helps you end your existence peacefully, erasing memories of your existence from everyone and preventing reincarnation:

 

[justwannadip]

Unfortunately I forgot the regulator and exit bag at the hotel, all I have left is the nitrogen tank. Now I have to decide whether to create another exit bag, switch to SCBA/SCUBA, or find a different method. I would trust a mask more because it's more secure than the flimsy bag.

What made you think the bag is "flimsy"? You seemed content and confident with the exit bag. I'm also wondering because I'm heavily considering the exit bag, and scba would likely be too expensive for me

 

[Tommen Baratheon]

What made you think the bag is "flimsy"? You seemed content and confident with the exit bag. I'm also wondering because I'm heavily considering the exit bag, and scba would likely be too expensive for me

An oven bag isn't flimsy.

 

[pulse1]

So you wish to essentially remove your existence? That's unique, and I don't think I've heard of that. I may have though, my brain is quite clowudy right now

Yes, from the very core of it. Not even something along the lines of me being a possible kid but not making it or a different version of me being born, I just wish my existence and my chance of existing was never there from the beginning.